So then, before I lost me thoughts the other day, I was going to say that I'm having trouble understanding why everyone is all like "Ohnoes~ stop the programming" ~

I personally don't mind any of it - the original run of my loop & stuff left my in a pink haze and I could barely function normally, but now I can remember & generally control everything - it just all goes through a "bimbo" filter before it comes out now.

Honestly, I'm not even willing to stop it at this point.....I think even if like, my parents or someone told me to snap out of it that I really don't feel it's worth it to listen. Mind you, after all these months, I'm not even sure I can go back to being all uptight and intellectual when the slightest touch is pure ecstasy like this. Thinking about stopping just reminds me of how good a bimbo I've become & how good it feels to be one.....I'd really rather just submit and feel at peace like I do now.

The other thing I was going to mention - not last night (I passed out the second my head hit the pillow), but the night before I posted my last entry, I had gone a few days without running my loop. The SLUT file has a part in it about feeling like a ton of hands are touching you and like a whole bunch of other stuff. That night, it felt like I hit the bed and was instantly grabbed & held down......it REALLY felt like a bunch of hands were all over me and giving me pleasure.......I think at this point, it's safe to say it tends to happen when I start to figure I need to run my loop but have not yet - like I've been a bad little bimbo for not listening for a few days and the hands need to remind me that I feel better after listening frequently.

Lastly, I've been forced to work with a guy for the next little while. At first, my insides were melting just at the sound of his voice, but after......a day working with him I guess, he turned out to be a real ass.......I'm hoping I don't have to put up with him too much longer. He REALLY does ~not~ know how to deal with women the right way. :(