Look I'd totally love to be a jock. The day after I listened to the file I noticed I felt goofy and very much aloof. Probably the smartness degrading, but that's the thing. I kind'f need to be smart. I'm a graphic artist and I need my creativity to earn a living and make it anywhere. Just recently I needed to design a tarp. I can't go all "fuck dis shit im a jock dumbass" on it. I love designing. I love art. The whole "your only interests will be sports and sex" thing worries me, because I need that passionate drive. I need that artistic vibe and energy. Then again it gets me thinking too. When I do become a jock, I wouldn't care if I'm not smart. I'd be happy with my simple jock mind, because that will be who I am. Technically I may have apprehensions for it, but in time I wouldn't be able to pull myself out of it, nor will I be able to resist it. It'll consume me entirely, and that's what scares me, at the same time excites me. It keeps me up at night. I'm just too conflicted about this. I'll be going out this weekend, so I'll be gone for 2 days. I'll give the files a go again for a week. That's it. Just 1 week. Let's see what this does to me.