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Moment of Clarity (5/21 new comment)

by izatga88

So......this last week, I've been handling some major money, thus I've been required to exercise the part of my programming that allows me to safely have control over my thoughts & stuff (yay ~ I'll have a lovely pile of money when I get paid at the end of the month). I'm amazed at how clear my thinking can be.....this is like the clearest it's been since last year (sadly, my spelling is still terrible, and the wrong words still slip out).

I don't mind it, I guess it just makes me look more like an airhead ~ Anyways, hmm.....I've been noticing my "bimbo-isms" have been getting......stronger I guess, as it seems the more I suppress that part of me to do work, the harder it knocks me over when I get home and ready for bed. I'm......shocked I guess - I'll be minding my own business, then realise out of nowhere that I've been groping myself & moaning without my noticing. I've probably given an accidental peepshow to my sister's friends once or twice now.......gosh.....the thought of that even turns me on now.....I'd have been terrified of doing that sort of thing before.

On a related note(?), I got to chat with my doctor, and he has ~completely~ cleared me for cosmetic surgery......I can "immediately" start "blowing myself up" as soon as the money is ready according to him. I was always the type of girl that liked the feel of her own (mind is tossing words around) TITS DAMMIT (lol) - I cant imagine a pair of "balloons" inserted under my skin would feel "natural", and yet, I've got this voice/picture of myself pouring out of my top with porn-star quality implants EATING away at my mind.......like I can't ignore it.

I guess that's what I'm noticing the most with this moment of clarity I'm having......I'm just shocked that I'm like, totally under the control of the programming. If I hear even the slightest of references to something in the file loop now, I turn into a submissive, horny bimbo......it just feels so GOOD to be all willing and comply.......like, I can't help it. Anyways, as the week has gone on, the bimbo stuff has been eating at me more & more. It'll at least be interesting to see where I'm at when the end of the month hits, because I'm about ready to run down my neighborhood street naked.

Comments

- Whimsical

Still thinking about showing us your "improvements" when you get them? And thanks for the updates- I'm fascinated by how the files are affecting you- and it doesn't hurt that I find your entries super hot. ;)

- izatga88

gawd, i'm like, alone in the house for the next few hours or something.....time to totally run around topless~

umm, i have nooooo problem at all positng a pic of my tits once their like super-crazy huge!

- BillionSix

Wouldn't mind having a "before" pic, so we can compare them afterward.

- ztshp

I still want your loveliness IZ

- xHeartx

I think you should consider camming to help raise money for your new tits. I'm sure everyone here would love to pitch in.

- izatga88

lol ~ It's not like I haven't thought about it, I don't have any kind of privacy at home though.

- xHeartx

Surely if you have a few hours to go topless you could do some cam time as well ;P So, this Dr. visit...I assume that a breast exam was involved and given your newfound sensitivity I also assume you at least were less than professional; so did anything happen with him? Do share with us.

- ztshp

Be my lovely IZ

- nativedragon

well IZ it's offical your an addict to sexual pleasure and all i can say is as your mind turns more and more bimbo your ideas of a good BF will fade away into wanting the next cock you see to fill your pussy up and from there it'll only go down *sighs* this ain't the IZ i know and love and long gone the person that wanted to kick out her sexual shyness to be less shy in the sex department and now it seems being a bimbo is taking over her life as she said the more she fights it the harder it hits and eventually she's gonna stop fighting and then IZ will be gone forever and replaced by a shell of her former self :(

- nativedragon

P.S before anyone flips t me i'm not trying to be mean or anything i just hate to see IZ throw her life away like this :'(

- xHeartx

Not goin to flip out on you dragon lol.

- izatga88

lol.....ya'll are funny to listen to sometimes ~

I'm exhausted......like, totally.....my mind is shot right now, and I think I might have actually spent most of the last 48 hours groping myself.

I'm actually.....eh......"scared" of doctors....kinda.....so I really just shut my eyes going "Please dont get horny" over & over as he felt me up. ._.

I guess I kinda doent disagree with Dragon, I've been.....thinking a bit about that stuff and really can't deny that I'm in the middle of all that.....at least it will be a fun & large-titted shell right? The fact that I probably came like 5 times during my loop last night in totaly ecstacy isn't......making a good arguement for me to stop.

- BillionSix

Hooray for fun and large titted shells! Have you dyed your hair yet? I think it will help you along if you can look in the mirror and see a blonde bimbo.

- Guuliar

Insanity is rejecting the experience of others thinking your different. Well really, its doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. There's more to life than sexual pleasure, we all know that. I know I keep flip flopping but still.

In 48 hours you could experience so much, but instead your feeling yourself up. I think if you want everyone to stop bugging you about stopping your going to have to show them how your not just thinking about yourself. Try volunteering or helping someone. What people demand isn't always what they want.

- nativedragon

i'm all for lost of control in a safe envioment/personal life but i draws the line when it starts interfearing with profesional life and btw implants can be fatal if they so much gets a pin prick the silicon will leak out and poison your blood if you gets hit in the chest say from a accident or a car crash then the silicon implants will burst and that's a 99% chance of death even if you survive the accident =/

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