I haven't listened to any of the files in so long, although I still felt that confidence in me. Felt pretty good after a while, so then I decided to masturbate after not having done so in about 5 days? So yeah I did. During the heat of sex and pleasure, I felt... my jock side. You get closer to the climax, and the jock part of me takes over even further. I looked in the mirror and felt it surging through me. I wanted to play sports, have sex with girls, be stupid and gain some sort'f sports scholarship. It felt amazing, TBH. But it died down the minute I came. It wasn't the first time actually. I get these odd spontaneous jock shifts in the middle of sex. I guess maybe I haven't quite banished those thoughts yet...