I'm still looking into more job stuff - it seems like one annoying complication after another pops up to throw a roadblock at me.....for the moment, I don't think getting back & listening to the files will help me so much on the job front.

Also, as a bit of a lazy update to my PMs I'm able to read again, I should point out that I've been slowly undoing a few things now that I can edit stuff with my PC again. I've gone over files and older journal entries, and it REALLY shocks me as to how powerful all of this is - the orgasm stuff and a weird latent obsession with sex stuff is still hanging around. I'm trying to "clean up" the way I talk - the fact that I can say "chest" instead of "tits" and other more graphic terms is some sort of proof that things have toned down I guess.

Ultimately, I'm in a fairly dangerous position for the moment since I don't want to dumb myself down right now, yet there are things that still instantly drop me to my knees if I ~hear~ someone say a few certain things - a good example being "bimbo". ~I~ can say it or I can read it as much as I like, but my pussy goes into overdrive if I hear someone else speak it. I can zone out & trance at the snap of a finger - any combination of words that randomly cause me to recall a line from one of the files usually blanks me out for a moment while I think about it - I cant see to stop or control whether it happens or not. The scariest thing of all is that I've actually noticed a slight drop in the correctness of my spelling and a few issues typing stuff up.....could my IQ still be affected?