Listened to a humiliation file a few nights ago, couldn't resist posting on another persons journal. I started using hypno in yahoo gay male chat. I listened to one or two files. This set me on a journey. I quite often think about feeling myself 'slipping', and indeed I did. I slipped and slipped, until I couldn't resist the urge to meet another male. On the first meet, when I was kneeling in front of him, taking his cock in my mouth (the first time I had done this ever), the words "you will find this the most natural thing to do" were swirling around in my head. Since then I feel I have progressed. I still meet with that man on occasions, I have been spanked, had my balls squeezed , had clothes pins(pegs) applied to my testicles. Nipples tortured. All kinds of wonderment. It's all down to these files, where else would it all come from? I must admit that I quite like the shame I feel, and telling all on here now. It makes me feel excited. Thank you x