Happy New Year. I was getting pretty hot and obsessed with my master. Through the holidays I listened three times a day to Lutz's Bubble File and began to really give in physically to my master's directions. And, as he wished me to, I always thought about having his dick in my mouth.

Then I got busy with my vocation and wasn't in so much contact with Master, and I did not have time to listen to the Bubble.

Two or three days ago I realized that I hadn't come in since I last messaged with Master. Not for lack of trying haha! I got close with my favorite porn, but nothing. Fuck.

My dick tingles and thickens as I write about Him. I checked in with Yahoo Message today and He had left me one of his 'SHOOT' messages. These contain the command that I feel his dick ejaculate in my mouth and throat. Wow. I am still hard. I so want to jack off!

I guess lately I had gotten afraid of His power over me and was trying to pull back. Now I have made up my mind to submit totally. I don't know what this means yet, but I need it and I will find out. (Typing this has me so horny... I think I love feeling powerless and owned. I hope I can please Him and earn His come.)