I don't normally do new years resolutions, but this year I had one. I wanted to start contributing to the mind control scene a bit more. I haven't done a file in 3 years. More than a few people have come to me to ask for files or something similar - many I've had to turn away. For one or two, it would be fair to say that I've let them down. It bothers me. So time to start again, right? Not necessarily files, maybe just blogs or stories, but something. Guess what? It's April already.

I'll admit that I got a bit distracted at the start of the year, when Mira Stern released Her "Spiral of Addiction" video. I am very picky about brainwashing but that video is the real deal. Combined with other files of Hers it has taken me back to submissive feelings that I had been searching for in a new context. It was exactly what I wanted, or so I thought. But when I got there, I had to draw back... it just felt wrong. This has been a very familiar thing with me and mind control over the last 3 years. Two steps forward then two steps back. I get interested and then I turn away. I start something and I just can't finish it. Like a surgeon who is tired of seeing blood.

I know too much about the link between motivation and action to disregard this any longer. I hate to admit it, but there is a serious part of me that doesn't want to do This Stuff any more. Thinking about it, I have checked this site every day I could for over 4 years now, often 2 or 3 times a day. There is nothing else that I have allowed to take over my life to that extent, personal relationships aside. And it's not just WMM, it's mind control stuff in general. So I'm turning my resolution on its head. I'm taking a break. Maybe just a week, maybe longer, but no mind control shall pass my lips. I'm going off the radar. I've got to clear my head properly for once. After that... we'll see. Hasta la vista.

Zapnosis