Unfortunately, due to a botched outcome (my fault I think), I am unsure if this will be the end of it - or if by chance it will occur again. For however briefly it lasted at the time, it was quite fun - seriously, what's not fun about 'uncontrolled' braying and animal transformation (being a furry as well, wolf and/or husky specifically) *lol*. So apologies and thanks to 'Mistress Squirrel' for her unexpected time. It was rather spur of the moment. As for this entry, I am writing in respect for her time and effort.

What happened you ask? Well, I was goofing around in the IRC chat room 'heehaw'ing at a previously donkey-fied subject as a joke. 'Mistress Squirrel' seemed to have decided my antics were amusing to her and she wanted to see if she could push it further and actually donkey-fy me. I'm rather surprised she took the time to do so as a session (and the like) wasn't actually requested. Not to mention that 'donkey-ism' wouldn't be my first choice as a species, heh.

I should also add that I am of the 'particularly difficult' subject class - not intentionally, of course. Only a few people, of the many that have tried (even professionals), have ever managed to take me under, let alone achieve any effects via hypnotic suggestion. So 'Mistress Squirrel's attempt was more like pitting my natural 'resistance?' versus her skill. I'm highly analytical (blessing/curse?) and have a difficult time shutting my mind down unfortunately, and in this instance, it would have been a pleasing change if it lasted or could easily continue.

As for the details, it began with me braying for fun in the channel and 'Mistress Squirrel' took it upon herself to make it more fun. I'll admit that parts of it are blurry without reviewing the log(s). From what I can tell, re-reading the log(s), she began by testing my general suggestibility. After noting that I was indeed 'resistant', she playfully made comments stating if I continued, it would become an uncontrollable urge. And of course, it was not an uncontrollable urge at that point, even after he countdown of ten more 'heehaw's, heh. She also stated she would set a release trigger to alleviate me (subconsciously I guess?). However, she then tried to tie the braying to an emotion; in this case, mild arousal - which was unexpected to say the least. *embarrassed*

Anyway, even after that 'anchor' was made, it wasn't particularly effective. It appears she then tried to reason with my 'thinking' side. I agreed of course, part of the reason in my recreational use of hypnosis is the hope that I would not need to think constantly, kind of like a fun holiday for the mind. I think it was roughly around this point where it started becoming interesting, if it wasn't already. For myself, I was under the impression that it's done and failure again but 'Mistress Squirrel' was insistent on continuing, if I was okay with it - which I was.

I figured I'd follow her instructions and hope for the best. 'Mistress Squirrel' then continued to describe aspects of a donkey (mindset, physical, etc.) and had me 'heehaw' every so often as I followed along. When I think back, this section is rather blurry for me but the feelings are still somewhat clear. Every time I 'heehaw'ed arousal grew and when I try thinking back on it, it was indeed more difficult to think (i.e. 'mind dulling'). At some point, I remember briefly only being able to 'heehaw' and everything felt a bit slow and confusing - although no phantom physical manifestations, discouragingly. Even changing my nick to Kami-donkey was a bit of an effort - even to understand that.

Unfortunately, it was also around this point (not sure when exactly), for an unknown reason, I snapped out of it. I was still rather disoriented though, I remember that much. And also, I think this was also the point where I may have offended 'Mistress Squirrel' unintentionally. :/

I will say that this was a success for 'Mistress Squirrel' and a lot of fun. I don't think anything like this will happen with her again but who knows? For the record, my boyfriend/mate/Master (also a hypnotist) has difficulty with me as well but he tends to do sessions in-person so it's a bit different and we don't meet very often, sadly. Hypnosis sessions in general are rare for me though so this was a treat and I appreciate and apologize for it.

[On a final note (and in the interest of completeness/honesty), I am unsure if this is just placebo or otherwise and it's a bit difficult to describe, but re-reading the log(s) to write this there is a faint 'longing'(?) for that more simplistic donkey mindset... and a minor amount of arousal too. *blushes* ^^;;; ]

Again, thank you for your time 'Mistress Squirrel' and apologies for the results. But at least you can consider this a success, however briefly. Heehaw. =^_^=