So today, I really wanted to learn more and I think HeadMistress_Squirrel is like 20 times the hypnotist that I am and think that I could learn a lot from her. So I asked her a non-related question. She answered and we talked a bit and I told her about one of my subs' previous experiences and she commented that it was kind of like how she turned people into Donkeys. Naturally craving knowledge, I asked for a script. She said she didn't have a script, I forget her exact words. I figured she just used the same idea from memory and then just winged it as the subject responds. Which was mostly true.

So I had a great time as a donkey. When everyone was talking about it in the chat room a few days before I thought it was silly. Boy was I right, I knew it was silly but every time she told me to heehaw I just heehawed like no tomorrow. I felt ridiculous but was still somehow compelled to heehaw. I felt myself getting stupider too. All I could do was make two smiley faces and heehaw, I tried to force myself to say something else to prove to HeadMistess that I wasn't in trance and I couldn't think of anything to say, all that came to mind was another heehaw. As it was going along I tried to think of what HeadMistress was doing and how I could apply it to my own subs but my thoughts were all fuzzy, like someone had placed a filter between what I was thinking and what I was thinking I was thinking, if that makes any sense. I knew I knew the knowledge and I knew I could pull it up any second and I did. I could feel it on the edge of my (sub)consciousness but I could act on it or use it in any way. For instance, I tried to think of my own sub and all I got was that I knew I had a few and nothing came up. I could even picture my word documents I keep notes on but all the information in them were blurry.

She also included physical transformations. The physical transformations were strange. She would mention a body part that I KNOW I don't have like pointy ears and I could FEEL her stroke them. But as soon as she moved on to another body part or another suggestion I couldn't feel them anymore. Maybe it was like a "outa' sight outa' mind." Sight, meaning focus of the subject in this sense. I tried very hard to feel all of my "donkey" body but I could only "feel" one body part at a time. Like, I felt her rub my nose and then she moved to my ears and I never thought about my nose again until she mentioned it. That being said, I felt very donkey-like mentally, I even had the urge to eat grass instead of human food. I could feel for a second a donkey shaped snout and blunt teeth for chewing foliage and I chewed a bit. I thinking I chewed my IRL human teeth and felt them which killed the feeling. And that bit wasn't even a part of the session, she never mentioned grass or eating or anything like that. I guess my mind being ever analytical, even in trance, said, "Well, I'm a donkey. What do donkey's do? Eat grass! Therefore, I eat grass. Om Nom Nom."

As far as linking it to arousal, that was so deadened it was almost not present. Whenever she mentioned arousal I felt a *slight* tingle, like the feeling that a single hair moved just a bit kind of tingle. She commanded us (I suppose is the right word) to orgasm, not even a whimper outa' my dick. Maybe I keep myself too satiated, I didn't start the session horny at all as I had orgasmed earlier.

One time during the session, I started outright laughing out loud. She wanted Mina and I to answer each other but I think we were confused as to who was calling and who was answering. I think I know what happened too. I heehaw'd once and she heehaw'd twice in one msg, so naturally, being one heehaw down, I had to answer. Then she heehaw'd so I had to heehaw back and it just kept going like this. After a few heehaw's I realized what was happening and started laughing like the I-don't-want-to-laugh-so-I'm-going-to-unsuccessfully-stop-it-with-my-lips kind of laugh and then we kept going and just started lol'ing. The thing is I couldn't stop answering Mina back, I knew what happened and I knew all it took was one of us to stop but I just couldn't. From my perspective she had the extra heehaw and I had answered her and she kept heehaw'in' away and it caused this heehaw-chain-reaction until HeadMistress stepped in and made us both heehaw to set us right. I was worried that the lol'ing would have interupted the trigger, but I think the silliness and stupidity of it seemed almost to reinforce the suggestions. After that part and after I lol'd I felt the suggestions so much more strongly.

So that was my (lengthy) time as a Donkey.

-Frap, Happy Heehaw'ing

P.S. HeadMistress, I don't know if you were expecting a journal entry like this but I do a lot of analyzing and I also document a lot. If it's a long read I'm sorry but this is what I felt compelled to write.