As I advice all my subjects and pets to do, I have a system of safeties to ensure that I play around with my brain safely. That's especially true since I'm willing to explore some pretty strange spaces when I choose to become the subject (or wind up that way). So, despite how much I enjoyed my donkey excursion last night, I wasn't surprised at all that it seemed a memory this morning, albeit a very good one. My day was normal, my mind was normal. My safeties work, and that was just another in a long sequence of enjoyable hypnotic experiences.

Except that I didn't want it to be just another in a long sequence of enjoyable hypnotic experiences. So when I got home, and my obligations were set aside, my safeties allowed me to relax. This was my time, after all. I tried to see if I could self-trigger the donkey experience, but only made an ... erm, half-assed donkey sound, with none of the arousal or compulsion or thought manipulation. It's better than the alternative, but sometimes the safeties work too well.

Largely reserved to the fact that the experience wouldn't be repeated, on a whim, I loaded up this bit of "donkey trigger porn".

It dropped me to my knees, braying happily, hornily.

I recovered to make my way to the IRC channel, and triggered lightly a couple times, then more strongly for someone interested in becoming a donkey heehawm self. And then Mistress Squirrel returned and took care of meehaw heehaw! It feels ... it feels so good to bray. It makes me so horny, braying and braying and because I'm such a horny jennet I have to heehaw more and heehaw heehaw! Just like an unthinking animal ... but, no, it's not that I can't think. I can still read and obey and heehaw and orgasm and heehaw. It's just ... there's nothing else I want to think about. Why would there be? Nothing but heehaw heehaw how good it feels how good to be a donkey heehaw.

I could clear this from my mind, if I wanted to. But I know my safeties work to keep me safe when I need to be safe and keep meehaw heehaw when I can heehaw. And I want this so much. I've wanted something like this for a long time, transformed, and my mind changed, and chanting -- braying!! heehaw heehaw! -- as I get more and more aroused even when i orgasm from being such a good donkey with my tail pulled and heehaw heehaw! Heehaw! I want it. It feels so good. Even if everyone sees what a horny donkey I'm glad to be, thoughts full of heehaw and arousal and heehaw and heehaw and heehaw heehaw! Heehaw! HeeHAW!