so last night i listened to just regular ol' 'Induction' twice before going to bed. i lay there with the intention to go under. not just to listen and go under.

the first time listening it was nice and relaxing, but i didn't go under. the second time listening, as EMG was counting down i must have blanked out, i honestly don't remember. i remember my kitten laying on my chest and purring, and i remember those random thoughts flickering at the periphreal of my mind.

but then...next thing i know, "Three...more and more awake..." and i was like...'holy shit, holy shit was i just hypnotized?'

i felt very excited and very proud of myself. unfortunately i don't have it on my iShuffle now, so this week-end, whilst at my parents place shall be inductionless. :(

but come all of the next work-week i am going to be home alone. i'm going to try to really listen to the files seriously.

but there is that level of nervousness. what if something happens?

but i know i could never let myself die in an emergency situation. i mean one time, just as i was about to go under before this sound just tore through my room, of an animal being wounded and i woke-up with so much adrenalin, i thought Random was hurt.

oh and my room has been 'repositioned', so now Random isn't so annoying

ugh i'm sory tired. gonna go to bed now.

yay me!