Well after more thought, figuring, with the test only being for another 2 days, and with the reinforcements from the file going well but not quite quick enough, I had another submission reinforcement session. Worked rather well. I felt a lot more submissive while talking to Mistress Squirrel, but, now that she's gone, it's kinda subsided. Just kinda feel normalish. While talking with her though, I essentially am controlled, able to just act, feel, do what she wants, without much thought, feeling good as I do so. I still think the same doing it, it's just like, everything is more appealing to just follow without resisting.

I guess most of the submission comes from that feeling of having things happen without much effort, with the reinforcements of wanting to please to feel pleased. Acting without thought allowing the submission to deepen, which makes Mistress happy, which makes me happy, which makes acting without effort be better, circle of reinforcements. There's also other triggered reinforcements, with submission increased every time I call her Mistress, and with positive reinforcement with certain triggers she can use.

It's also at a sense where, I feel more, owned but I don't care.. I suppose is the best way I can explain it. It's not like it feels like it's bad, more like, humbling in a good way. It's sort of an odd feeling. I still feel fairly dominant with other people, but sorta like, the top henchman, or right hand man, sort of way.. It's hard to explain. Like a feeling in the back of your head you can't get rid of, that you're.. Not so much, lower, as that's now how I feel, but.. more like being 'put in your place', but not in a bad way. I guess is all I can think of.

It's definitely interesting to feel for once.. It'll be interesting to see what things are like once the effects are off again. To see how big of a difference things really are. I still feel like me, but with more understanding of why subs do what they do.. Why and how it can be fun to be lead..

Thinking about it, it's similar in a way to how I view most religious people must be. Those that say they feel loved because they're "Doing god's work" etc.. If you actually believe that, then, who's to say that feeling, that kind of submission is any different than this? Both essentially give the sub a lack of control, but told to feel good doing it, both essentially "Love" the subject and give them the feeling of 'love' (Which is funny as I can feel 'loved' through suggestions even though I know what's going on) Both try to defer away from resisting or non compliance. Both give positive reinforcement for following (Religion = Afterlife, Hypnosis = Whatever really)

The only difference in these situations (Besides that there's been no negative reinforcement with myself, whereas religions like christianity use concepts like Hell as a deterrent for disobedience), is that, I have actual feedback from the person who's controlling me and doing all of these things. With a religion, there's nothing, no real time update on what is going on, but pure belief that it is. Belief not too different from the same kind of belief you need to enable hypnotic suggestions to actually effect you. If I'm told I feel, say, a hand on my cock, I know it's not there, but I can feel it trying to be. It still requires a massive amount of self reinforcement.

It's like it points to most religious experiences of "feeling god's love/influence" could really just be self hypnotic suggestion from sources such as churches, family, books, drawing people into creating these experiences for themselves. These influences, people telling you these things that are supposed to be felt and happen through the religion, across your life, until the suggestions "Stick" and you feel them.. From my observations of religious groups, the language people used, feelings expressed, it seems they're feeling the same "High" that this submission through hypnosis gives.. Feeling like, you're lower and out of control but it's ok.

*As a contrast, I've never had the desire to submit to a deity, (With the biggest being the christian/jewish god, as without getting too sidetracked, I massively disagree with. I still don't now, even after feeling what I can assume is the same sort of feelings they get.