Last night I've tried it for the first time. I have read different websites about introducing a trance and deepening it. I have read a lot of texts about the dangers and hazards of this hypnosis stuff. I thought it would work. But it did not work. Actually, it worked until we've reached a point where it all was boring to her. She complained about all that "relax"-stuff and those "nothing can bother you"-phrases to be boring and not quite relaxing. She even claimed it to be exhausting. Although I was massaging her all the time and trying to catch her focus on my hand petting her body. But I will not give up facing this setback. To tell the truth I think it's all about conditioning her mind to that kind of stuff. First of all since some of my suggenstions did work. For example when I told her to take a deep breath in order to breathe out all of her sorrows. She admitted it to have worked. Or my suggestion about the baloons tied to her ankles and lifting them up into the air. And, of course, when she tried to resist my actions by moving her arms in order to stop me caressing her and when I told her just to relax and let go. In the very next moment her arms fell down on the bed and there was not one single tension in any muscle of her arms. So I think it did work in some case. But when we talked about it afterwards, when she was awake, she confessed to be scared about being in a trance and not able to control herself. She assured to trust me - and, of course, I would never dare abusing this trust - but also to be scared about being hypnotized and not aware of what she is actually doing. So I told her that I couldn't force her to do things she doesn't want to do. And, those websites affirm that, I consider it to be the truth. I have to tell you that I don't either want to use this hypnosis stuff for satisfying my sexual desires. Eventhough I get aroused by knowing to have some kind of power over her I would not dare making her to do things I know she wouldn't like to do. The reason why I want to put her under is to give her a certain feeling, a good feeling since our sexual life has become kind of stiff and rigid. She even admitted herself to be the guilty one as she cannot relax quite easily. And so I came to this thing. And so I started this journal in order to archive my experiences in trying to hypnotize her. Hoping not to be considered as some kind of sicko.