First things first English is not my main language, so sorry if you don't understand something

Some whatever hi, i'm xtrex486, almost 1 year ago i discovered this site having a hypnosis fetish and beign a dom, i enter this site to see the files, see if i could find something to use, and well pass the time.

Around that year i wanted to become a better dom, i have beign with one subs(without counting online meetings). And i have this... how to say it concept that one can't never be perfect and have the opportunities to be better, during that time i begin to look, articles or anything in the media that talking of how to be a better Dom for a sub....

Some people wanted to be just used, other's wanted a gentleman, other wanted a gentleman but that could carry them in their lives, other wanted to have no will, and be just toys, i found a lot of things variety concepts, but what i found in common point is that multiple articles of master and sub's saying that the best master are the one who knows how a subs feel, their limitations, theiur love, how they feel when dominated and alot of other things.

Then first things first i register this site so i could train my self to feel a little like a sub, i used this concept because if it worked with massage maybe the learning will work with hypnosis and S&m.

After i finally registered the site, i begin to download various files so i could enter in the mood, and dwnload accept yourself like a dominator, so i could create to type 's of person One Submissive, and One Dominator, putting some ground rule's in mymind.

The i begin to experiment more and more, but i couldn't find my objective, nothing i did ended working...

Then.... (i WILL CONTINUE THIS IN THE NEXT JOURNAL)