I have been listening to EMG's DC-Possession file for several months. whenever I am alone I suddenly find myself becoming aroused, as if being called to his control. But I sometimes find that I can't cope with such constant arousal, and I break my pledge not to come without my Mistress's hand. then I am very unhappy for at least a day, unable to reenter the aroused state. It feels like I have spoiled it. But help has arrived with ocntrl's Deep trance medley, which is helping me to transform the desire to come into even higher arousal. It is giving me a new capacity to maintain the constant arousal my Mistress deserves as part of my service to her. I hope to turn this state of arousal into greater and greater devotion to her. I am, however, a lazy girl and she is quite unhappy about my lack of contribution to housework. I want to use this journal to publicly declare my dedication to improve in these areas and I hope you will help to hold me to it. Any suggestions you have are welcome.