When Im listening to my trance file, most of the time its like my brain or my mind is not there? I cant really explain it, I guess its just like a out of body experience. Sometimes itll get to the point where my body does affect me so that I cant see anything but itll just be me being blank I guess. Like I know what is happening but I just am not there, and all I can comprehend is the file. Also, it seems to be that everything is kinda based on what is in my mind or what Ive been doing. Like for instance, sex stuff will pop up randomally all the time. This isn't from the files just from myself looking up porn. Its just that I kinda don't want that thinking process all the time. I sorta think not watching that stuff for a while will change my mind and be better over all. Also, being away from sissy files and focusing mostly on being on tranceing this entire year made me reconsider being as feminine as possible. Or making a better attempt at it. Because when I listen to these type of files something in my mind just finds it annoying for some reason and I cant listen anymore. Its not that it doesn't work, it does its just that at its best it doesn't help me the way that I want it too. But listening to trance files has really cleared my mind quite a bit. Like the path is less cluttered. I don't know what Im talking about, but it feels a lot less complicated than it used to be when I first started everything. It also feels like Im wasting less time. There really is a ton of stuff that I cant really put into words I guess or at least in all one sitting and putting it all together.