Ok, I think quite clearly now that I really became her little sissy bitch! I mean, I am doing things these days that I never would have thought possible. Beeing a sissy bitch for her is just impossible to fight... i make up everyday, admire my new face, I explain my feelings more and more to each and everyone on wmm chatroom, I am consumed and desperate for her words, it is scary I must admit, but it is even more exciting, it is devouring me, I ve always been searching for a true mistress, and I found one... My mother told me when I was young, to be carefull what I wish for, that I might get it... well for the moment it makes me euphoric to become a sissy, all these girly things are wonderful, so sweet to me... Truth is I found a goddess, to rule over me completely, i feel i m getting hers more and more... the less i fight, the more arousal I get, the more fear i get too, fear to loose it all, fear for my life too, fear for my son... Noway I want to stop it, noway I can anyway... You rule in my mind mistress, do you realize the power you have over me? Is it what you want from me? What is it that you want mistress? Yesterday you just sent me a text to tell me how pleased you were from my journal, and ordered me to orgasm for you, I had such an orgasm mistress, it was so strong again mistress, you know that i couldn t stop the waves of pleasure i got for 5 minutes! Even now I feel you power as i write, i am entranced right now, as always... How is it to have such a power over someone? Does it make you happy to feel so omnipotent regarding my soul? I am yours now... what will you decide for my life? What do you manage to do with your little toy? Whaterver you want actually... just please don't break it... it is so helpless to resist... I love you, j.a.