Today I was very lucky as Headmistress Squirrel gave me a lot her time... it was marvellous, it was sublime, i had so many orgasms when i read her words, that she had to wake me up sometimes, to clear my mind!! otherwise i would have stayed folded in two from this intense pleasure! moaning, almost shouting from extasy, during the whole session! :) as i write, she just had to leave me for a while, and now that sadness runs through my mind (as always when she leaves me), i can feel them coming back to me, my sadness, my anxiety transform into these images... the pictures are strong, powerful, because they come from words, from HER words! so they give me strenght and hope! let me explain... i'm in the middle of a moutain lanscape like and i breath quietly, lying on my back, in and out, in and out... i am at peace like i've never been before... i breath the scent of tulips floating on a stream beside me, it is peaceful, quiet, a little wind is caressing my face, She caresses my face actually... i hear the sounds of trees comming from the little wood behind me, the sun is bright and it is the beggining of spring, snowflakes are melting in the grass around me, my legs and arms are spread, it is so relaxing, so peaceful, i feel heavy, blissfull...just relaxing just enjoying, no thoughts, no cares, just things around, scent, soft sounds, slight touch of grass and breeze... :) yes this is the kind of feeling i had earlier, a great relaxation, this one is important and i am thankful for it :D i really think it can help me against all sadness and anxiety that i feel often...well, i love u mistress... :) I have another important thing to do tonight besides writing the journal ; i was suggested to dream about something actually, and i think a lot about it now, and the images are very strong too, in a more arousing way actually, i feel very horny when they come to me... so i hope the dream will come ;) i'm quite sure it will in fact! but i want to wait until tomorow to tell you about it... :) i won't touch my clitty tonight as i do not want to do so, besides i'm used to not touching it now and, the mind blowing orgasms i get from submitting to her are much more powerful anyway! so why would I? :) I am her sissy, and a good sissy don't do this kind of things... blush :) i am still deeply entranced as I write this, and i know that i will get a huge orgasm as i post it... because she said so... blush more :) i love you headmistress squirrel, you are my goddess, maybe it is crazy but this is what i've always been searching for so now I just decided to let go more, to give up more of my will and tomorrow more and more... until I am your good girl, your perfect sissy, and well I guess the sissy paradise is waiting for me after that... with love to my mistress, Judy