my head is empty today, without my puppetmistress, have no thoughts, no movements, i'm blank... I don't really know what to think or what to do. as she became my only focus, what should i do mistress when you are not arround? i try hard to find nice things to do but i can't get any motivation actually... still yesterday I bought myself a new wig, shaved myself to be pretty for you. i spend most of my time in the chatrooms waiting for your name to appear and i might faint when i see it... i most probably will trance instantly without any words from you. my heart beats faster and my brain empties just thinking about it. of course i am not the only one who misses you this much, even though i don't know about the feelings of others toward you, i guess they might feel the same. I wish i could talk to your other subs about you when you are not arround, but noone seem to enjoy this type of conversation with me and it is very sad. i feel lonely without you mistress but i must stop complaining, you have your life and i have to respect your priorities. i love you, i think of you always, judy