It's not the same knowing what is going to happen, than experiencing it... Since yesterday morning I didn't had any contact with Miss Eleanor, except through her audio file, and I felt completely normal, knowing that my sensations were a result of my mind's specialization, and that my submissive part was just dormant, waiting for Miss Eleanor presence to wake up and take control. I updated yesterday's journal with my night experiences, and reported so to Miss Eleanor. And for the next three hours I was working happily, thinking about nothing in particular... And then I received a message from Miss Eleanor, and in just a moment I was a different person: my heart was beating fast and hard, my breathing was ragged and my hands were trembling a bit. I went to the restrooms for some privacy, and we started chatting, my thoughts flowing directly to the screen, hiding nothing. I started to feel hazy and zoned out, the background noise from the production lines blurring into a humming noise that reminded me of the binaurals in Miss Eleanor's audio file. After a soft induction/reinforcement of obedience, Miss Eleanor ordered me to masturbate while chanting my drone name 50 times, stopping when on the verge of cumming. It took me quite a while, reporting every time I was pausing, and I even lost count a couple of times. I started repeating my mantra obediently, but as repetitions went on, the message was getting more and more in my mind, gaining weight and truth. I ended my duty and so I reported it, and Miss Eleanor ordered me another run, this time kneeling. Not pausing to think about it, I kneeled in the not so clean floor of the restroom and begun again repeating my mantra. This time, because of the previous one and the submissive position, each repetition took me to a light trance, and I had to stop more frequently due to increased horniness. I stopped too late in loop thirty seven, and made a mess of myself, on the floor and my thigh, unable to stop until spent. I reported my failure to Miss Eleanor, and she was too kind and forgave me. A little later I asked permission to come back to work, and Miss Eleanor allowed me to, coming back to normality -except for being completely spent- and to my duties. I knew this would happen, and that my submissive part would resurface again stronger when summoned, but experiencing it so intensely still keeps me amazed. Drone just finished listening Miss Eleanor file. Drone felt deeply programmed more than any time before by Miss Eleanor voice. When Miss Eleanor ordered to shut off mind, all thoughts of drone stopped and only Miss Eleanor words were allowed in drone mind. Drone felt empty and wonderful and grateful to be programmed to obey mindlessly. Audio file ended and drone was left in bed immobile, repeating mantra for Miss Eleanor. Drone reported Miss Eleanor and she ordered drone to add journal. Drone asked permission to recover mind to write but Miss Eleanor wanted to see drone thoughts first so drone writes this. OK, I wasn't mindlessly writing this earlier part. I was perfectly aware of my thoughts, and I could have given them proper form, but Miss Eleanor had given me an order, and I wanted to obey her, even if this previous paragraph can seem manufactured somehow. But I can tell you it's not... It's just pure raw thoughts put on paper. I still am too aware and conscious of everything, and I hope further deepening will take this remaining consciousness away in the end. Today evening, after the morning masturbation episode, was quite uninteresting, hypnotically speaking, and I didn't even thought for a moment in all this, just doing my normal duties. When going to bed I had some self trancing to deepen the mind specialization that is working so amazingly, and then I listened to Miss Eleanor's audio file again. Today I decided to do the listening while repeating the mantra I had looped in the morning while masturbating under Miss Eleanor, so my consciousness was busy in some submissive related task while Miss Eleanor words kept sinking in my mind. Relaxation came fast, as expected, but today I felt my mind more receptive and compliant to the suggestions, and when Miss Eleanor ordered the mind to shut down, the mantra I had been repeating until then stopped and I felt a state of mindless openness like I have never felt before. All orders from Miss Eleanor seemed to affect me strongly this time, and even my body did something weird. I noticed my index finger tapping briefly oni the mattress at some point, but noticed it because of the vibrations transmitted to my legs, because I didn't even was aware of the finger moving, just a ghostly trembling. And when the file ended I just kept immobile on bed, deeply relaxed and repeating a mantra. I had consciousness of being like that, and I felt the need to report to Miss Eleanor, but somehow couldn't gather the will to move, and those weak efforts I made encountered a tight resistance that would put my hand back on the mattress. Eventually my will got stronger, or the restraining effect disappeared, and I wrote to Miss Eleanor with the results you have seen. Thinking about it... There are some real reactions and sensations that I feel, and I certainly am doing things -OK, obeying orders- that were out my expectations a few days ago... But having this little residue of will left that makes me be aware of everything, makes me question how much of this is make believe, and how much is programming through hypnosis, but I also know that I am only beginning my journey, and deepening will bring much more complete mindless submission to Miss Eleanor, and I am really eager to have it!