After updating my journal entry last night, Miss Eleanor sent me another file to listen, a trance deepener. I did it, but I couldn´t get the desired effect and got quite frustrated. I got deeply relaxed, but I couldn´t let myself slide into trance, because as soon as I felt slipping out into it, my consciousness would be instantly aware of it, snapping me out of it. This is something that happens to me almost always, except in certain specific conditions when I can “distract” enough my consciousness and slip away into trance without consciousness noticing it. Unfortunately, those conditions are not suitable for file listening or even phone calls.   I woke up analyzing my recurrent failure in this regard, and driving to work I started a spoken discussion with my subconscious  (yes, some people would call it “talking alone” but I know what´s really going on there…) and suddenly, a brilliant and simple concept rose as a possible way of keeping consciousness enough out of the trancing process no to interfere. I was so excited with it that I didn´t wait too much before having a self trancing in the restrooms to explain the concept “officially” to my subconscious, but it seemed that he (they?) was more than attentive during the car discussion, as I achieved a really deep state of body and mind relaxation before I could present the concept and actions properly. I came back really satisfied and willing to do the testing on last night´s audio files. Luckily I was alone at home for lunch and had the perfect environment conditions to go…   Listening to audio files was a completely new experience for me, as my consciousness stood aside, not actively engaged in the process when deepening enough, and letting my mind go blank and open, with no intrusive mental comments and hyper awareness. I actually “felt” the sensations as opposed to notice feeling them, and the small stream of consciousness that remained felt more like a footnote in the trancing process than a big lettered chapter heading. Extremely deep relaxation and a different way of perceiving the words and the suggestions this time, aimed more directly to my inner mind. I didn´t doze off at any moment, keeping relaxedly focused all the time, and came out of trance feeling very very calmed and a little detached like from reality as I reported to Miss Eleanor. I guess now it’s time to see what happens when I find myself in the presence of Miss Eleanor again, and I feel strangely calmed facing that event… Miss Eleanor was out all evening, and I was quite busy at work, not getting too deep about what had happened during the morning, but with the memory lingering in my head… I listened again to both files again at late evening, with even stronger relaxation and blankness mind sensation, not losing conscience of what was going on at any time. I came out of the listenings again very very calmed and slightly detached from reality, and the sensation was deeper and longer than previously. I tried to had a final listening session when going to bed, but my body felt kind of anxious and nervous, and couldn´t finish any of the audio files as I wasn´t able to achieve proper relaxation and was taken out of it. This is something that I had experienced sometimes, in occasions where my body seems not too cooperative.   Woke up this morning enveloped in a deep detachment from reality sensation, as felt when there is heavy sleep deprivation,  but I had more sleeping hours last night than in the previous nights, and I don´t feel tired or sleepy… It´s a really nice and interesting state of mind I’m in right now, and I hope to be able to meet Miss Eleanor this morning in this mental state and awake all the programming that I have been putting into my mind lately…