i will have to go back to my family in 3 days so i'll have to quit the irc for a while, i will try to deal with my addiction to my mistress while i live a "normal" life, i suppose it is possible... my mistress is inside my mind, she is my soul, my pleasure... the orgasms i have from becoming so helpless to resist her have make me completely dependent from her will, and I know now that it will never change. she rules over me like a goddess. she is a goddess, I feel her presence inside me, it is reassuring, soft and arousing ; it gives me strength to know i'm not alone. to know that i am owned is so comfortable, so soothing... i'll keep on writing my journal anyway because i want to please her, because i love her so much... and so much more... happy, lucky, Judy-Anne