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Becoming Miss Eleanor drone - day 10

by underMissEleanor

I have to love how mind works! Yesterday late evening there wasn't any chance for privacy, so I just kept to my things until I went to bed. This morning I woke up in a full unhypnotic mode, maybe because yesterday night was so quiet... But as soon as I arrived work, with all the possibilities for giving myself to Miss Eleanor that I have here, I started feeling the need to write her, or best expressed, the need for her. It seems that until I didn't have the chance to have privacy, I just held on my programming. After a blank morning, not in the good hypnotic way, I found myself home alone after lunch, with the idea of taking a nice long nap. I swear it was my idea and I was completely headed to do it, but just in the final moment of laying down, I suddenly thought “Heck, I don´t have these moments of privacy so often” and I took out the headphones and listened to Miss Eleanor´s audio file twice. I am still wondering if that was just a good sudden decision, as the logic of it is faultless, or some forces were nudging me to be programmed again. In any case, I did it.   As of late, the second round was more powerful that the first. In both cases I got extremely relaxed, and again I dozed off a bit in a part of the first listening, being very focused on Miss Eleanor´s words in a level of my mind, but also experiencing some brief daydreaming completely unrelated, fragments of thoughts vividly experienced. In the following listening, those spontaneous dreambursts were completely absent, and I felt like diving into Miss Eleanor´s words, as if they were ascending towards me when spoken, and I was plunging into them on each sentence. Also, the effect of the suggestions were much more intense, and I almost felt my body floating when told to… What I DID felt was my thoughts stopping when ordered. Suddenly I couldn´t (I didn´t need?) to articulate any cohesive ideas, and I just stood there, absorbing each and every word of Miss Eleanor´s programming, feeling something echoing deep in my chest when given my new drone name. I was complete conscious of being blank, immobile and programmed, but couldn´t do or think anything about it, just be there, empty and receiving all the wonderful orders (I meant to say words) from Miss Eleanor. I came out of that state instantly, completely awake when prompted to, and I have spent the rest of the evening until now completely focused in whatever I had to do, not feeling floaty or hazy or detached like in other occasions. Evening and night came and went and blankly as the morning, no special thoughts or desires or impulses, just a regular day. It seems that the separation of my mind in detached specialized sections but forming part of a whole is working quite well! Now I am just waiting for the moment when Miss Eleanor summons my submissive subconscious again, and all what's being put in there reveals itself in all her submitting glory.. And just to end the day, I listened again (yes, it's kind of a habit by now) to Miss Eleanor's audio file, and it started really well, relaxing and focusing, but I was taken out of it spontaneously before it finished, my body regaining sudden movement and consciousness of itself. I have to keep trying the files during night to see if this a recurring issue.


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