December 30th. I managed to spend the last part of the night alone in the living room, curling in a sofa, not in the most comfortable position, but I wanted to listen again to Miss Eleanor's voice, and I did two times. Even in that awkward position, her voice took hold of me, and I stopped being aware of my body or my breathing anyway. And when Miss Eleanor's voice begun to sound in the second time, I felt my mind tense and stretch like a canvas or a sheet of plastic in a square frame, like a window or a screen. I reported Miss Eleanor my progress, and something happened which made me fail in the task that was ordered to me. When I am listening to the audio files, everything I feel is deep relaxation and blank mind, no arousal at all except in some parts that sometimes cause an erection and throbbing, but for a short time. And when I come out of the trance, I feel relaxed and needing to report, but not excited while doing it. But... if I get an answer from Miss Eleanor, I got instantly aroused, and can't help masturbate looking at her words written specifically for me. And this time, Miss Eleanor had and order for me in her second message, but I was so aroused that I couldn't help cumming in the middle of reading her words, before being aware of her order. I apologized for not having control over myself, and she generously forgave my failure. Things are going slow but steady, and with every new listening of her voice, a new layer of her presence is applied on my mind, waiting for the right moment to shrink wrap my thoughts and actions in her absolute control and make of me the mindless and obedient drone that I am becoming.