Those past days have had few hypnotic activity, due to personal issues... I am posting here my reports to Miss Eleanor, to keep track of what's going on... Good morning, my sweet Miss Elanor. My apologies for my silence... From Tuesday evening to yesterday night I had big issues at home and although my mind was in the mood for escaping into you, it wasn't the appropriate moment to do so, if I wanted things to get right again. Now things are calmed down, and everything goes back to normal. I keep having a lot of difficulties to let go completely, be listening to your file or self trancing, and that gets me quite frustrated... Why can't I do the same to myself as I do so easily to others? I reinforce the let go of fear and the bliss of complete mindlessness, but it doesn't work fully yet... Need to keep working on it, find the key to allow consciousness step aside completely, and only then I will be able to lose myself into your ownership and programming He he he... End of saturday morning thinking! Hello, Miss Eleanor. This morning I listened again to your file, after some different mental preparation I designed to be more open and lost in trance. And I felt something different in my mind the second loop, I could feel your words, your orders taking hold of the blankness of my mind and becoming my truth and my program while I was listening. It felt good and natural, as that's the only truth and ideas that I need to have in my mind when I am being programmed by you. And even when I got fully conscious and normal when awoke, I find very arousing the sensations and I am masturbating while I write this. I wrote this some hours ago, but didn't sent you because I didn't have the proper time or conditions, but now I do. Yours, and craving to surrender my mind to you, to be played with.