im not sure if anyone wants to hear about this, but I'm sure if you're reading this, you must be somewhat curious. Ever since starting this new file, we've had a lot of power gathering in J and her abilities, so to speak. A few days ago, we had a small panic, because we thought the mind was having trouble coping with the adjustments. I think it was just a stressful day on the neck muscles supporting the skull, and it triggered some nasty migraines with stress, but it really hit hard for J, who I didn't really hear from the next day. But I know she's getting stronger. I don't think I'm as scared, which might be a bit strong of a word, of her being in control; I think I'm more concerned with giving up control at all. Maybe this isn't the place to admit things like that, but hopefully I can resolve that soon. It doesn't help when *some*one is extremely aroused and thinking about getting us...er, in compromising positions. I was about to walk away, and instead found myself following some guy we were eyeing earlier. (To be fair, he wasn't bad, but I don't usually stalk my prey so literally). However, we agreed stalking was bad. Or I told her as much, she might still be too aroused as we speak. But it was a bizarre feeling, like she was somewhat forcefully wearing my skin to get what she wanted. Not that I'm complaining, but it does feel a bit different than before, and its weirding me out. Anyways, until next time. Z