Those past days have been very slow and unremarkable. Lots of things to do left me little time and energy to keep on my pursue of mindless surrender, and disheartening was starting to take hold, not seeing any advances in my way down to deep trancing. A few days ago I tried to renew my dedication to Miss Eleanor after a long listening session that went well, but not reaching the depths of previous times. I thought that proving my will to keep on by doing something only she would make me to do would unlock the blockage in my mind and allow me to go further... but I couldn't do it. I had my cum ready on the palm of my hand, and I swiped it away, unable to lick it. I spoke with Miss Eleanor next day, showing all my doubts and uncertainties, and how I was losing my initial momentum. She was certainly comprehensive and caring, and eager to help me to keep on and not give up, and proposed me a new direction in my training. Miss Eleanor sent me a new audio file, composed only of subliminals, to listen while doing other activities, and combining it with self trancing. I have been listening to it for two days now, and while I don't feel any change, it has restarted the will to experience deep submission, and unlock consciously whatever barriers may have been created. Last night I had a long long session of listening and deepening, facing my fears and reservations, and when I came out of it, I had the determination to sign my commitment the only possible way. And this time I did it without hesitation, licking my cum as a proof of my will to keep on. After that, I had a brief chat with Miss Eleanor, to report my advances, and she was the most supporting and encouraging as usual... And also did some test to check her files were working, with surprisingly good results. Still a long way to go, but with a big smile on my face!