So, I will admit that I have been so wrapped up in my self hypnosis lately that I have been ignoring the journal -- at my current stage of progress things tend to be stable for a while then ratchet up. The really strange thing subjectively is that all this strange stuff now seems totally normal and natural to me

My dick continues it's slow increase in maximum erection, though I still am holding off on measurement in the hopes of the next one being over 8". The really noticeable thing now is the changes in the flaccid state; which is now pretty much a constant full size semi erection that vascilates between rock hard and long, thick, and floppy. Even with my pants down in freezing cold, it just won't retract anymore.

Gender expression continues to grow more and more masculine, to the point where I am practically never wearing half the stuff in my closet anymore. I pretty much live my camo fetish 24/7 now and even when I try hard to tone it down, I still find myself choosing the most manly and fetishy outfit I can get away with.

My alter Butch is getting more and more body time, and has totally taken over dress, exercise, and grooming. I am not fading away, but we are becoming more equal than we used to be and I am finding myself naturally doing the things he would suggest without needing for him to explicitly suggest it to me.

As for dominance, I still don't have a full time submissive, but things are starting to get really hot with my sub chat buddies. I am now totally unconflicted about my desire to be a hypnotist dom in real life and bend other men to my will.

Since the most recent use of the stroke file, I have developed a major fetish for guys with small dicks, and I now get insanely turned on whenever I think about being more hung than my partners. Any shrinkers who would like some encouragement from a big dicked manly man should message me as it makes my cock rock hard and huge to trigger you.