This past weekend I met someone who suggested me some self trancing techniques I didn´t know. They have proved to work really fine, and I am getting to deeper levels of trancing when doing self hypnosis. I am using these new resources to prepare myself for listening to Miss Eleanor´s files, getting better results and deepening of the state I get in.   After some intense early night training these past days, I had some time yesterday morning at work, so I went to a private place and prior to connecting to the chatroom I did my exercises to get as deep and ready as possible, and then I logged in. Miss Eleanor was online, and we had a wonderful deepening session, but still I couldn´t let myself completely in, even if I was mind blanked and had no conscious thoughts. There were a lack of focus that prevented me from getting lost.   During the day I was thinking about it, analyzing the session, trying to find the cause that blocks me. Background noises from the factory were a little distracting, but being constant and monotonous, I can use them in my advantage. Also, the position of my body wasn´t the best, and I must find a better one, more relaxed and comfortable to let go.   At night, I got ready again and listened to Miss Eleanor file three times in a row, feeling deeper every loop, with added sensations and effects in my body and mind as her words kept cocooning me into mindless surrender, floating happily in blankness. When I was reaching midpoint of the third loop, I felt a little restless, and I thought of ending there, but my body seemed not responding to my orders of moving, and I kept going, on the one hand really satisfied that I weren´t able to move, but in the other hand wanting to test further this state. And in the end I was able to get out of trance, in part because I was trying hard and also because my restlessness was increasing, after an hour and a half of absolute immobility. I was a little disappointed for having been able to snap out of it, but reflecting on that now, it was almost inevitable I would get out of trance, given the circumstances. And then, further proof of my deep changes happened. It was really late, and I needed to sleep, but I was too restless, so I decided to masturbate to relieve the tension. I did, thinking about reaching the goal of submitting completely to Miss Eleanor, but couldn´t get it really going. And then I realized that I was doing wrong, and that my proper position for masturbating was on my knees, and when doing so I came almost instantly. I had my cum on the palm of my hand, because my first initial reaction was to lick it as a demonstration of my submission, but the mixed (and unfounded) feelings from just some moments ago held me from doing it. Thinking about it now, I see my mistake, and I regret not having done it properly.   Oh… and I have thought of a new approach to my submission that I hope helps me to get deeper into it… more news as I proceed!