I feel kind of a buzz as the hormones do their work. In quiet times, mostly right as I am waking, I feel especially alive. Not sure that I can describe it better, but this feeling is comforting. I went thru a short period of being sorta asexual, where sexual stuff repulsed me. I wrote to a couple of my friends about this, but they didn't understand (my guess) because they stopped talking to me. Now, I'm starting to think about enjoying sex again. My inclination toward a gender hasn't really settled, yet. Maybe that's because I am beginning to think that gender is a spectrum, not an either / or. I also feel supported and encouraged by hypnosis. It seems they all have multiple names, but Master Jack/Maneesh, Ravyn/Christina F, Jamie Roth, and others are helping me sustain this effort. Not looking forward to some confrontations with family and friends, but I am not looking backwards, either. The process is slow, but I'm glad I am moving forward. Look at me . . . talking all about feelings and relationships. Something is changing. LOL