Last night I was SO close to make it... I listened to Miss Eleanor's file and the effect was deep and instant in the first loop, putting me in a mindset of blankness and obedience and complete relaxation, still too conscious of it. As the loops kept playing, the effects were adding and deepening in every new listening. I could feel my body reacting and changing sensations, and my mind bending, opening and shifting to Miss Eleanor's words and will... But still too conscious of all of it. I guess there is a big difference between knowing you are mindless and BEING mindless, unaware even of your mindlessness... I ended the loops satisfied but longing for more, but it was really late then, and chatrooms were empty... This morning I woke up and I started to repeat the mantras and ideas and concepts in my mind, powerfully, and they brought me to orgasm really fast. I know that the programming is in here, but still unlocked. I keep looking for that elusive key...