My home internet was down for quite some time. Master Jack wanted me to update my journal. And I owe updates to a couple of friends. I'm still on herbal supplements: fenugreek, saw palmetto, and raw ovarian glandular (Swanson). Progress, if any, is glacial. I am also listening to some Master Jack, SpaceFemale, and other hypnotists. Currently, I am a 90-day experiment for Master Jack. This is going well. I like listening. Usually, I get bored after a few listenings, but MJ is better. When I am bored, I try to push thru it, like my friend Marissa advised me. OK . . . the difficult part . . . I did talk with my wife. She doesn't see me as female, so basically that conversation raised bad flags for her. I'm hoping that she will better understand in the future if/when more changes occur. For now, she is ignoring the "elephant in the room", and I can understand that viewpoint, so I am leaving it alone. I also talked with my primary care physician. Since I am still living as a male, he won't refer me to an endocrinologist. Have others felt like: "I want to be more passable before I live as female. To be more passable, I need more potent hormones. But I can't get them until I draw too much attention to myself by dressing female before my face and body are ready." It feels like a Catch 22 to me. So, I am kinda bumping along the transition road. Not happy, but overall happier than when I was just male and taking no action.