Wanted to give a "shout out" to Brianna and Marissa. Thank you. I appreciate your encouragement and guidance. And thank you to Master Jack for your files. I probably think too much. I think about the trouble my transition would cause. Transgender equality is in the news, lots of lost jobs, no income, homelessness, etc. I wonder why I want this. Of course, I don't; no one does. It's the transition difficulty. Who has a magic wand? Why can't people like us do an instantaneous change? I think that's the only option for me. Or I suppose there is the default option, i.e. stay a man. So, my plan: save as much money as I can. look into changing jobs so transgender therapy is covered by insurance. It seems painful to me that money has such a great impact on transgenderness. Either accumulating enough to make a step change or losing much of it because of a slow transition. I know that money can't buy happiness, but it can buy some really important pieces of respect . . . like respect for myself. I can't keep being a man, can I? Too analytical -- should concentrate on the first 4 letters and the pleasure, right? :-) I'm off to work and then to my refuge . . . Master Jack files. Master Jack says the files will improve my confidence and remove the guilt for the transition. I hope so. For now, they give me this OMG temporary, warm, content feeling. If they also turn me into a slut, I would willingly trade. LOL, especially to Brianna and Marissa!!!! BGF, special girls