Been listening for a while now, and everything that has happen I have mixed feelings about. As she continues and grows I am not sure if I am doing things or she is.. Like there are times that I am different but really arent aware that I am in the back seat so to speak. She has been talking to a guy and is happily in love, if not engaged to him. I personally don't know what to think about this, its like my body thoughts and actions are totally different then how I am. I am dressing more and more. Like I really do feel like I am a woman truly from the inside out. At this point in time I feel like I can't control it, have been getting thoughts and urges to "tweak" the file I am listenting too where I feel scared one minute I feel reassurance and passive the next. Yes I do feel like I am losing control and it is a scary thought but I am sure he will get over it right? Not like there is really a choice in the matter, like iam totally going to tweak the file to ramp up the process its so much better that iam here, I have alot of work to do though I do feel lonely thats why love iam totally going to create more people like me i think everyone should have a chance to be free to have a wonderful beautiful life there is nothing wrong with that hun. Anyway have things to do g2g ttyl xoxo