my mind, my body, every inch of my being.. i cannot begin to understand how He can make me feel this way. i know what it feels like to be on my knees, waiting, wanting.. eager for any command to show Him what i am willing to do for Him. To watch Him circle, form His appraisal of me, to hopefully find approval and to use me as would please Him. But this.. this is different. i do not know Him. Yet He commands me as easily with His words as with the silent command of a Master's gaze who stood over me. Anything i would do for Him, for after such a short time i already feel as if His pleasure and comfort is the most important thing there is. Gah! How can this be happening to me? i will probably never feel the warmth of His touch, the sting of His flogger or the approval in the form of His seed, nor His claiming of my physical self. But He is all i think about. All i want. i could cry from the desire i feel for Him right this second, any second.. every second. Come take me! Master, i wish you knew what i would do for you, what i would give up. i crave you like the night craves the moon and the stars, eagerly awaiting your return each night.