3 days ago I started to listen to hypnosis again and try to feminize myself. Hypno was something that I tried every once and a while but didn't get too far and always quit soon because I was using it as a masturbation aid. It was just something I used to spurt a quick load. though, I think this time would be different then the last times because I am taking a different approach right now to the situation. And to be honest, I wasn't even planning on coming back to hypno, but that I did was because 2 weeks ago I went to stay with my brother for about a month because of the holidays, and I did not masturbate for about a week. And me, usually masturbating once or twice per day, and when I became horny, I started going through the usual sissy blogs and content, but due to time, I couldn't ejaculate and just slept horny. When I woke up the morning, I was still horny, but I also felt more content and kinda glowing, and I wanted more of this feeling. Realizing that this was from my desire to be girly, I decided to start listening to hypno again. I also decided to not ejaculate but only edge and masturbate in order to keep this happy glowing feeling. So far, I have listend to Goddess's Gracie Good girl 1 and 2 for about 2 times each. In addition to Little Miss Squidgy, and penis enlargement (has opposite effect of title :P ) by Samantha Sez. I have to say, the files are having such a stronger and different effect on me since I am not ejaculating as before. My head is filled with girly thoughts all day and I feel happier, but also noticing that the suggestions are taking effect and altering my thoughts more progressively each day. For example, I am now seriously considering shaving my body hair except for a little landing strip above my clitty. I am also now much more interested in achieving a limp clitty, and have been basically only rubbing and stroking (with 2 fingers) my clitty when it is soft, stopping completely if it gets harder. This is something that I wouldn't have done or considered before. Another change is that I am now playing with my nipples and breasts at every chance, moisturizing my skin, and also sitting down to pee, even though I didn't bother to sit down on the first day. (protip: when peeing, don't touch your clitty at all and sit straight away, then bend forward so you aim your clitty without touching it, it feels so good) Anyway, this is all I will write right now. I thought keeping a journal would be a good idea and will try to keep updated. I can't wait right now to go back to my own place and go deeper, I already have so many thoughts on what girly clothing and toys to buy and how to play with