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Dumbing Down Part 4

by Sandrana

The last few days have been quite interesting. My reward file after completing part 3 was train to suck which is really nice. I already liked blowjobs so that didn't really add much in that sense but to train and be better and do propper deep throating is a plus. I have still been listeing to the adictive brestplay file because I really like it but less than the days before. I pretty much stopped listening to the lipstick file by now due to time reasons.

I kept up with the morning ritual of listening to the file right after getting up. The first day I listened it only took me 20 mnutes to cum. I was so very excited about the prospect of it. I didn't notice much difference the first day but I also didn't expecdt to, the file said as much. I have gotten used to feeling a slight preasure on my head/brain after listening through most of my day that it isn't even that special anymore.
The next day was a bit different, I felt very confused after listening to the file and spent quite a bit of time day dreaming in the shower. Mostly about sucking cock or being otherwise used by men like a propper bimbo should be. I didn't read any news that day and when thy came up on TV i even switched channel to something morre interesting, in this case Simpsons. I wasn't sure if it was the file or me doing it because I wanted the file to work. But it didn't really matter. I did that the next day as well. Though there I felt even more off than before. Possibly becaus eof the sudden increase of temperature and it just being very hot in gneral. I don't function very well when its too hot but it was just as wlell. Together with teh effect of the dumbing down it felt really nice. I did watch some makeup videos on youtube instead of reading the news too. But I stated to think that I'm probably doing it on purpose because I want the file to work.

Yesterday then for the first time I started thinking "what if its really working" while I was listeing. And there was som fear or concsrn in that idea. I wondered if I had become really dumb and just hadn't noticed it yet. What If my media habits really had changed because of the file? What if there was no going back? Did the file make me not watch the news or was it me? Those thoughts really got me all worked up and I had a fantastic orgasm after about 45 minutes!
I never felt that I had ever truely woken up that day, just not allthere. I had intended to spent a lot of time with the whole Brexit thing but ended up not really doing that and instead focus on something else.

Today then was dfferent. I had a crappy night becuase of the heat and eventually gave up trying to sleep longer. I'm not sure how much sleep I got in at all. I decided to "get up" and listen to the file instead. But I fell asleep. Wokeup from my alarm about an hour later. I was really really turned on knowing that I had been listening to the file in my sleep and started playing with myself again.

During the Day I noticed taht I forgot how to spell certain words and that really got me worried. But also very turned on. Later I even noticed that I had problems with math and that without ever even havin listend to the math confusion file. That is still to come after all. But it was just simple things I didn't know how to deal with. I don#t remember what it was related to now but I sort of paniked. it completely freaked me uot that I couldn#t even remember what 18 devided by 2 was! However before I could really think much on it, my hands started to go for my nipples all on their own and i started rubbing them. Hearing a vioce in my head telling me that it was right and what I wanted and that I was on the way to become a bimbo like I was suppossed to be. I spent several minutes in that zone and afterwards I wsa so wet that I had to change my panties.

With the Brexit stuff being everywhere it was really impobisible to avoid it and there was a lot of talk about it amongst my friends and family. but after several hours things calmed down enough that I could feel the dumbness coming back to me and instaad of readinng more news about other stuff I instead read some "celebraty news" which I think is dumb media ;) I am very horny all the time and I have to keep playing with my nippls. Evne when writing something longer, like this, I have to stop several times just to play iwth them for a while before I an continue to write.
The idea that the files finally really really started to work is such a big turn on I cant even believ eit. I just want to keep listening and cum my brains out until I'm just an empty headed bimbo.


Comments

Good post! - Erotion

This was such a good journal post, so rich and full of detail! This is the kind of post we all wait to read here, and it was both interesting and arousing to see it here. Also, seeing your speech slowly degrading is beautiful, a truly beautiful thing, there\'s some kind of decadent quality to it, like seeing a beautiful flower getting warped and pressing backwards and forwards to appreciate all the little things, all the little details of his inner corruption. Please keep this up. If you keep this up, you\'ll definitely turn into a empty headed bimbo who can only giggle and suck and fuck, but that\'s what you wish anyway.\r\n\r\nA note on sleep listening: it may do wonders but always remember to listen and/or repeat at least core programming upon waking up. I have seen in many people how sleep and especially the phase from sleep to wake in the morning can be disruptive to conditioning. This might also not happen to you. Just a word of advice. \r\n\r\nI hope to read more from you soon!

Yay! - makemebimbo

It sounds totally wonderful :) like I wouldn\'t freak yourself out cuz like I def think the files are working and like t does get scary but like think about how happy you\'ll be getting to be who want to you know? Oh for makeup um I love jefree star he is gorgeous if you wanna heck that out on YouTube he does the tutorials. (If that\'s your style lol) like I\'m so happy for you! And the horny all the time thing is like one of the bestest parts lol. Keep going like it\'s only gonna get better :)

I\'m glad! - Sandrana

That you guys enjoyed my post :) I will try to add more such details in the futre as they apprear if I can remember it ;) I plan to keep it up, I don#t see what would stop me now really. I do wish to be a bimbo that can only giglge suck and fuck. I\'m looking foward to it too. Thanks for the tip on sleep listeing Erotion :)

and thanks for the youtube tip makemebimbo :)

Great entry! - StrippedGears

And yeah, the panic is normal. A lot of fetishes and kinks come from feeling that something is \"wrong\" in some way; submissives that get off on being degraded, couples that roleplay sexy teacher and bad student that needs a good grade, people that REALLY like feet... It\'s the feeling that they\'re crossing a boundary. Turning yourself into a bimbo is the same thing because society says that being smart is good and being dumb is bad, but being smart doesn\'t make a person happy. The panic on this file is just because while the first three files just link being dumb and being happy and being horny together, Intellectual Starvation is the first one that really truly attacks how much you care about whether or not other people think you\'re smart. But here\'s a secret: people like it when someone less informed than them is in the room. Most people you\'ll deal with like feeling like they can talk down to someone dumber than them. They\'ll love having an opportunity to explain current events not because they want to talk about them but because they want to demonstrate that they\'re smarter. You know what kind of person would be mad at you for not keeping up with the news? A mean person. Nice people will just see that you completely don\'t understand what they\'re talking about and, having shown that they\'re smarter than you, will be happy to change the topic to something within your grasp. So don\'t worry your pretty little head about anything but what\'s fun. Things like fashion, celebrity gossip, trashy sitcoms, even trashier soap operas, and sex.

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