Sissy Training Book

Jazmin has had her day off from work. The morning was filled with lingering sissygasms from hypnotic trance session with Goddess Gracie’s files, Kei Light’s files, MsJ’s files. Is not Goddess Gracie expensive!

Sissy now enjoys the evening to herself for the purpose of writing her daily thoughts. These form part of the Sissy Program 2018 where Sissy will learn how to be owned. Will sissy become a feminized test subject? Only time will tell...

Sissy liked to her a female colleague describe her at work as sassy. It doesn’t leave much to the imagination of what a pathetic hope of a failure of a man Sissy ever was. Not that there will be a shred of masculinity left. Sissy forgets all about this.

Instead, Sissy looks at Men’s dating tips which caution against women learning how much power men will have over them. There is something about this obsession story which has been programmed into women since the dawn of time. With men able to tap into the obsession story, this leads to lingering, lasting relationships.

Sissy has been fascinated into all this insight into the lifestyle and behavior of man. A lot of men might seem obese, and Sissy has learnt how men need to watch what they eat and when. Coupled with the right eating regime of nutritious foods, and, exercise. There are also exercises for men to avoid.

What this sissy wants more than others is to suck me ‘s cocks. This might be so simple as playing the computer game, RuneScape. In this game, smd (or, suck my dick) means listening to what the other guy has to say. That’s fine by me, but, I don’t get the opportunity to play very much these days.

Sissy Program 2018 has me very excited, there will be a lot of adaptation to fit into this alternative lifestyle. Much precursors work should already have laid in the foundation. My experience with sexual exploration leads me to have sexual relations with men. And, the surrounding homophobic attitude around me has somewhat lessened.

With the right atmosphere, these tools to feminize me will lead the way. Will I follow in the path as laid out by Caitlyn Jenner, or will I have my own direction and timing to take? This questions are for pondering on.

My favorite task would be to let myself be obliterated into Sissy heaven with the most delightful combination of sissy hypnosis and, as for masturbation...well, this sissy prefers to remain diddle free.

It’s all very well to take into account the effect an adult has on alternative lifestyle, this Sissy would like to keep from ‘R’ rated video which impede, hinder, or, impact badly against Training. All the while, making out as the ideal sissy, a letter of openness and acceptance follow.

A room mate told me not to mess with transgenderism, so, there must be somewhat of a serious nature to get this program right. Signs that I’ve been cheating myself by not seeing through the program to the end might be grounds for my expulsion from the Sissy academy, and, I do not want that.

What would be nice would be for sissy to download dictation software onto her iPad which allows for sissy to speak her silly bimbo thoughts into the computer system. That way, a lot more words may be said than these typed words.

Sissy welcomes the chance to play as being a girl with her career in the future as an appropriate girly choice. The family decisions might involve leaning away from traditional male roles this Sissy has had to fulfill when living alone. With a steady boyfriend, the ideal outcome of living in a relationship may become fulfilled someday.

Using advantageous stories to my advantage, Sissy would buy sissy stories from eBay. Unfortunately, Sissy has run out of money for this year. Sissy needs three sources of income to live within her means. Sissy might have an Owner but, that thought is forgotten by the mind instead accounting for Mistress Red and her sexy curse.

Starting in 2018 Sissy will have to outline a budget assuming rent will be taken from social security income. This leaves enough money to pay for food. Most likely all other business expenses will have to be cut back most drastically. For, Sissy has not had much chance for a lucky break to be made in business.

The role Squidgy plays in sissy’s lifestyle is as a mischievous curse running much the same along the line as a devious curse. Sissy jazmin wants her owner to know, the curse has brought much solace and relief from relationships. But, it is not right for sissy to live alone.

Entering the Sissy academy, the activities this Sissy will have with cum on her mind from the guys around her. Leads to soft sexy thoughts of flirting and of sucking cock. Making herself look, dress, and appear feminine will run against the work ethic this sissy learnt to be on the task force.

Things such as behavior, hygiene, grooming, questioning, communication, following instructions, appearance, conduct. These things need to be sissified at the end of the year and, this sissy wants to use magick spellcraft to accomplish this achievement.

Sissy has tried to adapt to modern spellcraft but, this have been out of reach for sissy as being too expensive. Instead, Sissy follows a regime to study and exercise following Lyricus materials which teach her how to behave obediently. Sissy very much wants to continue her Lyricus experience into her feminization and would incorporate spellcraft if that were possible.

The feminization process might take a long time, but, with sissy’s progress so far, we have Parliamentary procedure on our side. Sissy Jazmin would very much love to learn to speak with her superiors properly. Sissy jazmin wants to become the best dolly she can be for her Mistress Trainer, Frida.

Sissy jazmin has thoughts of sucking cock everyday. These left over tell tell signs from previous sissy transformations have not left much to the imagination when it comes to making love with guys. Jazmin wants to write an essay of her thoughts every day.

Transformation of these thoughts using MK Ultra programming, sissy knows MK started for the military,  it, recently learned how MK applied to university. As unfolding of MK takes place, this Sissy would learn to use her words to apply MK on herself and, especially through Sissy Academy. Here, these essays take SissyLover into the future with a homely approach to MK.

Existing in a relationship with someone, jazmin would love to continue her experience as a full time girl. Perhaps this would make for the meaning of feminine test subject. Anal introduction as a course comes first for those sissies with little to no experience of anal sex. My sexual exploits at university took off for a dive into alternative lifestyle in the Sissy arena with Little Miss Squidgy as my mascot.

Since then, Squidgy has taken over and infected my mind with her type of virus to turn me into the Sissy MsJ wants me to become. With two files that would make lovely purchases floating through my mind, the decision to adhere to MsJ or, to continue with Goddess Gracie rests on my shoulders.

Secretary Sarina pointed out Goddess Gracie’s website: goddessgracie.com would help me with a head start on hypnosis. Though the costs rank high, this week my bank has gone below zero. Until tomorrow when my last pay check of the year brings it up again. Sissy has got to stay on top of making herself an important budget.

Sissy wonders whether all her hypnosis training will be paid for by the academy. In exchange with the Chinese department of the academy, the subject claimed she was not under the obligation of making financial payment, but, only by making payment with her life.

How can this sissy move closer to the goal of being feminized with her life? Living alone seems to help, and starting out for a career as sissy maid ought to count for something too. Jazmin would make for an obedient sissy so long as princess doesn’t give rise to self-esteem concerns.

Being the girliest-girl, the prettiest princess is not just a game. There is some form of fantasy where one person’s fantasy is another person’s reality. And one person’s reality is another person’s fantasy. The trick is knowing when one is imagining.

Jazmin has heard of concerns of MK subjects who break through their conditioning and corrupt innocents around them. Sissy Jazmin does not want this to happen with her. Sissy Jazmin wants to save money so as to have a smooth journey going through her transition.

By making a budget and sticking to it in the year, 2018. Sissy Jazmin will love the new You she longs to be. Transforming into a women from the inside out, this long and arduous process means much talent, skills, and, resources have gone into the regime to follow.

Sissy knows it will take every ounce, fiber, and sinew of her body, and her little, weak, feeble mind, to be conditioned just exactly the right way her trainer desires. Sissy wants this and consents to this: “I consent Mistress.” Hypnotizing herself through sissification, jazmin deepens into her role models who have brought her into this state.

From the experience at school of crushing on guys to her first sexual explorations with another guy, Sissy has come to take the game to a whole new level. Dressing up as girl, cross-dressing, flirting with guys. The intent would be to make love to a guy whilst dressed and acting appropriately as a woman ought to act.

This fills my mind with hot lusty thoughts. It will only be a matter of time before New Years and class begins. Until then, sissy jazmin wants to lay in the needed necessary foundations to put forth the work to lay in the ground work. For business purposes, sissy jazmin has to pretend to be a guy and attend business conference for an overnight adventure once this year, 2018.

Also, will 2018 be the year sissy jazmin purchases her product starter kit to get involved with the business opportunity and attract new customers to become distributors of her business material?

As exciting, daunting, intimidating SissyLover could be, it’s no match for business to generate cash flow. Somehow, the thought of performing sexual favors to grant satisfaction to men excites this Sissy into behaving like the perfect cuckold for a wife.

So many new and exciting journeyious adventures to go by. Sissy Jazmin really needs to read her bedtime story books though. Whether these are tales of diaper days continuing into eternity, sissification of girly-girls, or full bodied feminization, these acts of random kindness ought to enter sissy into a state of conditioning with as many other men as possible.

Coming out to my family and friends as the woman I’m meant to be will be an ordeal and an endeavor which triggers psychiatry, antagonism, felonry. Sissy Jazmin wants to avoid this MK with military, commerce, residency. Is this the pathway sissy jazmin will take? Or, perhaps a more sinister pathway lies in wait for someone who plays RuneScape for example, a devious game.

The attraction, the desire to turn into a sissy spreads through my little clitoris into my body and shoots upwards and outwards with orgasmic pleasure. Feeling so thrilled with myself, multiple orgasms being a reality, already hypnosis with Kei Light has led me to feel the sensation of whole body orgasms.

Orgasming like a girl is great. Soon, I will be orgasming like a sissy. This feels like I’ve dropped into trance without knowing it. The trigger by accident to unleash my feminine implant by Kei fills my mind and floods my thoughts with uncontrollable desires to feminine myself further. Do I want to admit this beyond my control?

Forcibly feminized, letting myself under the coercion and duress of another become the woman of my dreams. How long have I waited for this? How will I live within my means as a woman of my dreams? What three sources of income will keep My from surviving into thriving as the adorable sissy maid who wants to cuddle and let hungry cocks fuck all over her cute, sweet, sissy body.

The stupendous turn on it feels like having the need to wee. My sissy programming will surely take me to a whole new level. The next level consists of going through with this pain, drug, hypnosis procedure. Eventually, I will be surgically assigned as woman. Perhaps one day this will feel like the fait accompli or, consummation in other words.

What true desires does the universe have with me to be the perfect girl that I can be? Who will transform me? How will I leave the house as a full grown woman? So many questions, and, so little thoughts to express the deep desires existing deep within my heart.

Dark, secret fantasies lingering within the recesses of my mind, captured by some hypnotists imagination to transform myself into their play thing. A toy for someone else’s amusement. Will this be the outcome for myself? How deep do I want to go and sink into this adventure? How far have I already gone into Squidgy’s world of hypnosis longing only for ‘Bimbo’ and ‘Sissy Forever’ to take me over completely.

Does this not feel like rape? Unconsenting hypnotists mind raping away my will, my imagination...leaving only an empty shell. Will I become an apathetic doll, blank, mindless, empty existing only as a fuckdoll. Can I survive this way for the pleasure of another? Such horrible sissy thoughts float through my mind in the deepest, darkest desires of my sissy heart.

What will it feel like to be caught up and wrapped around in this sissy lifestyle? Such fascination held with fantasy, will it really and truly become my reality? How much do I want this, I long for it, I crave it. Ever since my first exploration into erotic hypnosis has the journey begun. And now, this opportunity is lying in wait to claim me. To take me as their own. As the devil wants to possess me, so does Squidgy possess me.

To the detriment of my family, I have been made into a sissy fuck doll, a slave whose only job is to behave as maid to please and to serve others. I want to train myself as the perfect maid to serve and please others. I know how to do the dishes, put away laundry, tidy up around the house. And, how can I forget my vacuum and mop job?

With a feather duster in one hand, a rag in the other, dressed in my maid uniform. Will ‘Birth of a serving girl’ by MsJ become a true reality for myself? What path towards sissification has goddessgracie got in store for me?

This really, truly seems like an exciting adventure. And like every adventure, we get nervous sometimes. But, after prevailing through, the motto, ‘be prepared’ comes to mind. I can make myself an overnight bag in case someone wants to come to the house and take me away.

Into wonderland, where the fun will really begin, will there be no going back? To the point of no return, my full body senses belonging to a Mistress, an Owner, a Master, what type of relationship do I exist in? Will my dignity be stripped from me? What sort of mannequin will I become?

These wonders lie in wait for something so far gone as me. If only it were for the best of all concerned would these ridiculous allegations towards feminization be quelled and finally laid to rest. Were it not for the sissy thought floating through my skull like some sort of virus, then I would never learn what it is to live, breathe and, act sissy 24/7.

Into this ether through which we move and have our being, the Sissy mold around me must be shaped and fashioned so as to give existence to the creation of femininity. Such creation exists in a state far more so than mere survival. Greater than creation, we might not begin to imagine, but, from the very stem of creation, we have entered into another existence.

Delivering the fresh dose of sissy poisoning my mind has become a snatch soaking up whatever glimpse there has been of crossing over into another side where sissies roam free. For whatever reason, the whole purpose of my existence bends over into the fact to yield up my sexuality and the Holy Ghost upon this form of sissy analgasm.

For the purpose of securing myself sexually into this creation, a new wave of consciousness spawns over me soaking me in pink perfume paradise bliss. As it seems to me, this is good. Floating away as if in a bubble upon a cloud, drifting further and further away from my mundane existence.

This journey proves fruitful were I to discover the very essence of what makes a sissy tick and adopt those principles for myself. Learning the rules and regulations for having to live the sissy lifestyle, I made myself a fresh lifestyle to behave the way I want to permit.

Existing how I want to in this sissy lifestyle, the burdens put upon other people in my life give way before the tumultuous outpouring of desire. As deepening ever through the vicious turmoil of a tough universe, the harsh reality of acceptance will eventually settle over me.

Drifting away from the soft warm comforts of luxury to be at the whims of someone superior to me, the idea of sexual slavery daunts and terrifies me. What cold basement floor would I be dungeoned into? Will I be tied up and left to hang around as my owner seeks to relieve themselves of bathroom pleasure?

Through this darkest time, the night lets in carnal desire. Thoughts ranking above one another, the very stem of existing creation. My overlap into this world of insanity brings no tears into my remorse. For, how long forgotten have I dreamed of those parliamentary measures which would bring back St. John of the Cross?

Entering into the manifold manifest desire taking place, shaping the heart, taking form into reality, these outpourings flow from one so conceived as it were, the essence of a joke better left untold.

Meeting more than the wings of charity. My features fly into the northern most part of Earth’s atmosphere. Without which we would not be able to breathe. How have I been as a child? Growing up through the ages, will I ever let my guard down and allow my will to be stripped away by the computer program?

More so through the satisfaction granted to him who is left in charity. These features of my womanly body caressed by a man leave me wanting more. Who will Be my boyfriend, or girlfriend providing me with food, clothing, shelter, pleasure. In exchange for my products and services, haven’t we ever lasted until the fall from divine favor?

In the extreme likelihood, whatever eventuality, those with big hard cocks will pound my sissy pussy. Stretch me up and fill me full. Allow your cum to pour out of my ass. Delight in the male transgender sex. Let us allow a nation to rise up delivering all others from the bondage imposed upon them.

With liberty, in freedom we reign as true survivors of a holocaust fought through wars in which feminine energy takes on a new meaning for the year, 2018. Venus has known no bounds within the energy of love, this true satiation stretches forth into my endeavor to deliver an upright and well bred devil child.

By immediate sacrifices, must the frugality of autonomous legions descend upon us all? Will the ensuing conditions ripen well enough for my mistakes to hamper the design of day to day costs of living? How far flung into the future do outspread visions of mirth wait?

How can I keep this ever so simple. All there is to Sissy is dressing up. Living my nature within the confounds of an account password, the username will never be revealed. What needs have it be that I, Z.G. make amends on the business which so rules me with satisfaction.

Z.G. delivers fully functioning aspects of my reality into his or her own universe. Within this universe, the contents of ‘musha’ may be discovered. Within one’s own right, the extremes of these favorite courses of action unprecedented extend across non-reality.

What seems like fame and fortune now requires sacrifice to be made. But, not a blood sacrifice, a sissy’s greatest sacrifice has to do with never making love to a woman ever again. How Z.G. generates his fame and fortune has to do with spellcraft. With only Rose Ariadne to begin the adventure, spellcrafting has decidedly become something to carry out when lucid dreaming.

Working with the correct notion of what witchcraft is, the whole premise of spellcrafting begins through the use of color psychology and almost immediately begins to incorporate aspects of what has been learned through Lyricus. So much so, that in fact, it seems a amalgam of Lyricus May Be turned around and sold as spellcraft or, as a computer program.

Writing these computer programs to bring about my heart’s desire, a transaction is required. There must be something I am willing to sacrifice to fulfill the goal of my dreams. In return, when will this dream be handed over. Can somebody else reclaim my dream after my death? Exactly how will my death spread the impact through the world?

Are there any ways to bring about a more gentle occurrence of Z.G. into the outlines of a realm steeped in mysticism? It feels nearly time to deliver my monthly report to my magick tutor on the eve of a full moon. Enclosed Therein will be the contents of my magickal practice. Including any spells I have written.