Been frustrated..took a break. Other things in life have greater importance.  I think I jerked off at least 3 times in the morning, and then twice in the afternoon. It helped some.  Taking a break from the libido enhancers as well.  That stuff really gets me going.. Time to recharge, figure out how i'm going to incorporate working out into my schedule, and not choose hypno over a good nights sleep.  

Got some new jocks in the mail. Gave em a good handwashing, and set them to dry.  I was hard the entire time thinking about wearing them.  hard now thinking about wearing them, and hypno.  My mind keeps going back to getting fucked mercilessly by a big bull of a man, big muscles, big dick, big balls, macho agression.  I wonder if i've hypnotized myself while being fucked... drifting off into a different warm place.. it seems familar.. Sublimitating myself to the use of another, unleashing their inner desires to fuck and dominate, reducing my conscious into a willing warm hole eager to be used.  Man I enjoy an endurance top. After about 15 to 20 minutes of fucking I'm in pure bliss. At this point the top is no longer interested in anything more than getting the most pleasure out of his dick without regards to my needs.  He knows the harder he goes, the rougher, the more I moan and cry for more.  Been thinking of group sex, of bondage and blindfolds, hotel rooms and rentboys, big hard dick fucking me until I don't want it..then getting poppered up and taking it some more. I've got a real desire for the submissive headspace and a hole hungry for endurance fucking.  

Caught myself looking at e-stim buttplugs. Thinking about that involentary contraction of my muscles down there seem interesting.  I wonder if my subconscious can do that without the electric stimulation.

I wonder if I'm ready for a hypno-dom to milk me remotely...

(fuck I'm a leaky mess..) I gotta get back to work

I wonder if my fantasy is the bull in the mirror....