Confusion bull power last night... My conscious mind thought it was not working..my conscious mind thought I would stop listening.  Instead I stopped jerking off for a day...that became two ...then four..then an amazing almost no touch orgazm after deeply trancing to slow cummer and amazing anal orgasms. Every three to four days now is the plan. Bull power touild up the Libido, Anal Orgasms to help releave the stress.  No more masturbation.  24 hrs since the last cum.  I was horny yesterday, and I'll be horny today.  No jock, I've gotta focus on work, but I have been putting on my jocks more and more. I practally lived in them this weekend. I've  been eating too many edibles and living life in a fog.  I need to lay off of the porn and twitter as well.  

The increase in libido/bull power and constant thinking about sex is a rush. I'm a submissive.  A slutty bottom in waiting. Thats all there is to it. Thats why the hypno works. I love to loose control. I want to be dominated. The submissive head space is so similar to trance. Letting go, feeling pleasure, getting out of your mind. Surrenduring to the will of another.  I need to take dick.. i need it in my mouth..i need it in my hole.  I need to be used as fucktoy.  My dark fantasies are bubbling up now too. The desire to take any dick in a sling in a bath-house. The desire to get gang-fucked. The desire to get tied down and fucked.  Pushed past my breaking point. Pushed past my needs or comfort. Serving as an instrument of pleasure.  Taking in all of the alpha bull energy, taking in massive amount of jizz.  Feeling that throbbing cock flood me with jizz is the ultimate bottom reward.  I always get a massive flood of endorphins and pleasure knowing I pushed him over the edge.