Ate a pot brownie and went to bed early. Made a massive playlist... Failure to Resist, Hypno Chastity, Anal Orgasms, Hypno Chastity, Bull Power Confusion Loop.  in an out of trance the whole time.  I think it started on repeating the loop, before I was done.  So horny, but not wanting/willing to touch my cock. I play with my hole, cock nestled in my jock.  Its been a while since I fingered myself. Feels good, not great, not orgasmic.  Flexing my PC, and hole.  I finally give up and go to sleep.  

Woke up horny.. Very hard in my jock.  I wanted to touch myself, but I did not. Submitting to the file felt better than touching my cock.  It definately sunk in last night.  I'm on day 4, balls full.  Hypno Fetish increasing. Control Loss fetish increasing.. It feels so good to not be able to touch my horny hard cock. Bull power growing. Like a red glow from my root chakra filling my body with lust and need.  Unable to touch my cock, now I can focus on using the bull power to grow. 

Chatting online with a guy got me wound up.  By mid morning I seem to be back to rubbing my cock for pleasure.  Time to either work or be physical for the day.  No cumming for me, just a smaller jock to control my hard leaky cock and swollen full balls.

I think I'm gonna play a little game with myself. Every time I touch my cock I'm going to repeat to myself, "My dick is a toy for dominant men" and stop touching myself.