its been 9 days since my last post and have been a bit naughty with not updating in such a long time.

This past while has had its ups and downs with the listening to the files. I felt as though I was started to get a bit stuck with the files and wasn’t seeing as much progress as I was hoping..Yes I know.. expectations need to be kept in check but its easier said than done! My problem was this it felt as though I didn’t ‘feel’ or ’sense’ Bambi and that I was sort of forcing myself into how that mindset so it didn’t feel natural. Life had also been busy for the majority of the days so this impacted the listening as well.

Its difficult to find an hour to an hour and a half each day to listen and falling asleep with it playing wont work as I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep. I decided to switch what tracks I was listening to by going back to the basic indcutions, takeover (sometimes) and awakener. Its more manageable and I was rushing into it by trying to almost listen to much at the same time.

I have a Bambi uniform and putting it on say randomly during the day doesn’t have any effect and instantly put me into that Bambi headspace. Hwoever, putting on the uniform an then listening to the tracks and chatting after I believe will slowly help with associating wearing the bambi uniform to those feelings. At least I hope so!

I haven’t experienced feeling ‘bambi like’ during my day to day activities and my focus and ability to think clearly has been fine. I know its not recommended to have bambi affect your day to day life but its something id like to experience.. perhaps feeling bambi like randomly during the day for a short time. What I have also noticed is that my arousal has diminished somewhat with listening. For instance I would usually be someone that needs to orgasm regularly but after listening to the files my desire to orgasm is no longer there.

But now for the fun bits!

These past days iv noticed a big jump with the progress. It has been a great experience and has encouraged me to continue as I was uncertain about continuing with it after not noticing much effects.

During a session I was able to truly get into the Bambi / bimbo mindset and really embrace it. It didn’t feel sa though it was forced but rather that it felt natural to be thinking that way. I started to begin to think from both my normal mindset and that of bambi’s. As it progressed it became easier as well as noticing I was more inclined to want to continue in the bambi mindset as opposed to my own. I suppose that would be my first time ‘sensing’ bambi which is fantastic!

Someone who is fantastic to work with (you know who you are) really helped me to get into that headspace as well as using both chatting and listening to drop deeper into it. That combination had a profound effect and really kick started it again for me

One surprising thing was that I had forgotten certain parts of the trance until it was mentioned or suggested to me. That for me is very strange and unusual. Of course I think its exciting that I was able to forget parts of it as that’s an element I want to experience and play with. For instance when waking up in the morning I didn’t think of the previous nights session until it was mentioned and then of course the memories came flooding back. For me I would usually always think back on my previous sessions the next day whereas in this case it was only after chatting about it that it then happened. Hope that makes sense? Its definitely something I am looking to explore further with.

I hope over the coming days to ‘sense’ bambi even more and what id like is for her to develop her own personality. Hopefully I will be able to make more progress on it and update this blog further.