My life, having settled into a new normal, is relatively calmer now. I’m still working more than ever before. Social and public life is fine. I haven’t had sex in 18 months. Married life.. Don’t want to cheat, so I’ve got to re-direct my sexual energy.

I’m going back to Bull Power. Its been months since the first round. Its stuck firmly into my long term subconscious memories. Went back to it last night. It still puts me down, and gets me hard. Feels so good to trance and float and submit. I’ve missed it.

Making a few resolutions:

      I’m going to work out more, every-day I can

       I’m going to masturbate less, and try not to touch my cock in a sexual way.

        I’m going to channel my sexual frustration into working out.

Porn should be Instagram hunks, not twitter gooning. I spend too much time on twitter fantasizing about cock I’ll never touch. I should be focused on making myself the biggest hairy bull beast I can.

I need to watch my intake of maca and L-Dopa. Both make me horny. Keeping a high libido is good, and should motivate my workouts. Too much libido and I lose my nut by watching porn.  I need to porn less in general, and workout more. 

Workouts have started, masturbation has stopped.  My balls, swollen, sore, and full, haven’t cum in three days. Hard in my jock, I need to redirect my thoughts to working out.  Submitting to the conditioning, this will be my new normal. Balls Full, cock leaky, fixated on working out as my only sexual release. 

I’m realizing that just like working out Bull Power is going to build over time. If I keep my conscious mind and subconscious mind working towards the same goal, I will be successful.