Thank you to those who have taken the time to read my journals. I apologise again for the slow updates, but I have had a change on the work front and frankly just not found the time to sit down and write. So, for the update.

I have not listened to the Curse of the Teeny Weenie since the end of week 4, however my penis seems to have shrunk a little more. I have still not been able to get a full erection. When stimulated, it becomes firm and grows a little but by no means hard. Orgasms are achievable through ages of flaccid stimulation by rubbing it against my tummy or as mentioned before, pushing it back inside me and rubbing the head of my dick like a clit. My wife has also used a vibrator in both situations described above which had great results.

My wife and I have not had penetrative sex in ages. Her orgasms are achieved through me giving her oral and making use of her toys or “friends” as we refer to them as. Her favourite dildo is a 7” flesh coloured realistic looking cock. Her vibrator, the one she uses on me, is pink, about 3” long (kind of pocket size) with multiple intensity settings. She will sometimes use the dildo and vibrator at the same time on herself. My orgasms are always after she has cum and she will sometimes instruct me to use the vibrator on myself or sometimes she will use it on me. As mentioned, this can take time and I think she gets frustrated with how long it takes for me to reach an orgasm. On that note, my orgasms are no longer powerful spurts, but rather a slow steady stream.

After a lot of discussion, my wife convinced me to see a doctor. I told her that I would go if she went with me and that I did not want to see our family doctor, because we have known him for years. After phoning around we found someone to go and see. Dr X is in his late 30’s maybe early 40’s and really good looking. My wife joked after our consult that she found him rather attractive and might change GP’s….He was really nice and listened to the “problem”. We explained that my penis has just stopped doing what it used to do and that it has definitely reduced in size. After an examination, which was quite embarrassing and multiple blood tests, he put it down to age, change in circumstances, stress as a result of current conditions etc etc. Basically he didn’t know the cause. He suggested that we try Viagra or some other drugs to enhance my erections. I said I would think about it. My wife, lets call her F, later told me during one of our chats that she found it quite erotic watching a man examine me. Seeing him “examine my little flaccid dick and playing with my little nuts”. This is the first time she non jokingly referred to me as small. F also told me that she had a deep seeded fantasy with male on male action. Something that she never mentioned before. I was quite shocked and frankly it took me by surprise. I was lost for words and the moment was lost in time.

My wife has tried repeatedly to get me to use some form of medication to rectify the situation. We have had many discussions about it, but I am standing firm. I don’t want to take anything. Then F said something that took me by surprise. She said that she enjoys our change in sex and that in some ways her orgasms are more intense using her toys, but she said she really misses the real thing, “The feel of a real cock”. That is when I sprang phase two of my plot.

I said to her that if she wanted to find a lover to fulfill her sexual needs then I would be accepting of that and would support her. I told F that I fully understood that she needed a real cock. We also talked about my pre dysfunctional stage and that I always felt that my dick was never really enough for her and that was why we experimented with toys in the first place. After a LOT of discussion, she admitted that my dick was always small and in fact it was the smallest she had had when she met me.

F however said that she valued our marriage to much and would not entertain another man in our relationship. I said that I was ok with it and asked if she would at least think about it. She said she would but not to hold my breath and I left it there.

So, there is the next part of the big plan ousted. I would give anything for my wife to take on a lover and to cuckold me.

Thank you for reading. All comments welcome.