Its broken, properly……….

First of all, please forgive me if this entry is long winded, but there is much to tell. It’s been a number of weeks since my last update and a lot has happened, so I will try capture as much as I can as it happened.

A week or so after my last entry I went away for a week on business. As mentioned before I travel quite a lot. Anyway during that week I listen to the curse of the teeny weenie every night. As in the past I “fell asleep” during the session and never heard the ending. Woke up feeling very relaxed some time later. I never really gave it much thought other than making sure I listened every night. When I got home a week later and F and I had some alone time, it was very evident that things had changed. There was absolutely no trace of an erection at all. In the past, my dick would get firmer but not hard, but now nothing at all. Its broken, properly……….

Let me explain. When I become aroused now, I get a heavy, warm feeling in my groin area. It feels like my dick wants to get hard, but nothing actually happens. It just stays soft and is very sensitive. It is hard to put into words. F tried to make me hard with the usual gentle touches, kissing, sucking, licking etc but it just stays small and soft, with this crazy heavy warm feeling. The only way we could make me cum was with her little vibrator that we have used before. My orgasm is nothing at all like they used to be. The orgasm its self is a little disappointing, I only dribble a little stream of cum. No spurts, no pressure behind it at all. We tried a few times over the next week or so and it is always the same. We end with me going down on F and both of us using our respective toys. I use the little vibrator and F uses her favourite dildo.

F and I celebrated an anniversary last month and we decided to spoil ourselves with a really nice dinner in a great restaurant in the city. We enjoyed a few good glasses of wine and had a great night. Just as we were about to leave, F asked me if I trusted her. I obviously said yes and asked her why would she ask. She said she wanted to try something new when we got home. I couldn’t wait to leave and get home.

When we got home, we enjoyed a drink on the patio and then F stood up and took my hand and lead me to the bedroom. We both got undressed but F left her panties on. We lay on the bed and did our usual foreplay, but F would not let me go down on her. I was only allowed to touch her through her panties. After a while, she looked me in the eye and asked again” Do you trust me?” I nodded yes. She then very slowly slipped off her panties and held them in her hand, she very seductively waved them in front of me and said, “don’t you miss taking these off me?, don’t you think this should be your right….to remove my panties?” I mumbled a yes. She smiled and said, “I don’t think you really mean it….” I again said yes, but louder and clearer. Then F slowly wave the panties across my face, letting them linger for just a moment under my nose. I could smell her, and all I wanted to do was take her right there and then, but my dick was just a soft little worm. F repeated the action again and then again. F then asked me, “can you smell how hot I am for you babe?” I nodded yes, and she said, “then why don’t you get that little dick of your hard so you can have me.” Yes F actually used the “little” word again. She has done that a few times now. On her own accord.

For the first time, I regretted having listened to the Curse. I needed to have an erection right then. I needed to make love to my wife. As hard as I tried my dick just stayed limp. F then took her panties and dropped them over my limp dick, then asked me, “do you want to go down on me babe, do you want to taste want you can’t f#ck, Do you want to make me cum that way?” I immediately said yes. She rolled onto her back and invited me in. Just as I started to move, she stopped me. She looked at me and said, “first, you need to put those panties on. I want to see your little dick in them.” I looked at her and she knew what I was thinking, then F said, “you said you trusted me….” I did as she asked. They were still warm and I could feel her dampness. I nearly came right then.

After I had brought her to an orgasm, and we had come up for air (so to speak) F took her little vibrator out of her bedside table and passed it to me. She said, “now its your tern babe, but leave the panties on, I want to see you cum in my panties” It took me a very long time, but I eventually came and my little dribble leaked through the lace in the front of her panties. F then told me to go rinse them in the bathroom and hang them to dry in the shower.

A few days later we spoke about what we had done at length and I told F that I quite enjoyed the experience. She said she also had fun and that we might do something like that again sometime. Then she sprang something on me that I never expected. F asked me if I was serious about her finding a lover. I almost choked. I asked her if she had someone in mind, and she just repeated the question. I said I was serious and that if she had someone in mind, it would be ok, but I needed to know. She looked at me and said that she had been thinking about it and that if she was going to do it, it had to be on her terms. And that I had to agree not to pressure her into anything. I agreed and promised that I would let it run its course and that it would be totally her decision with whom, when and where. All I asked is that she would tell me the truth. I asked her again if she had someone in mind and smiled at me and said, “maybe.”

This brings me up to date. With one more detail. I am away for work this week (I left on Monday 7^th/12) and will be away until Wednesday next week. When I unpacked my suitcase at the hotel, there was a sealed envelope tucked amongst my clothes. There was a hand written note on the front. The note read….”do not open this until I tell you too, and don’t ask me about it either. Trust me. I Love you F”