I’m thinking of moving this journal to a more appropriate blog site. I don’t think it true to the intent of this site. My journal seems to have morphed into my cuckold fantasy rather that the shrinking of my penis, which was the initial intent, and I can confirm it was more of a success than expected.

If there is any interest, let me know and I will provide updates. Anyway, for now, this will be my last update and journal entry.

Continued from last night………I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling thinking about what I have done, what F was doing and about the man on a date with my wife. I walked aimlessly around the room, watched TV and tried to clear my mind of what was happening. Eventually I lay on the bed staring at my phone waiting and hoping for a message to say that it was all a joke. Nothing…

I picked up F’s panties and looked at them. Then slowly moved them under my nose. I felt like an absolute pervert. I took a gentle breath in. Her scent was absolutely intoxicating. I did it again, but this time a much deeper breath. Till my lungs burnt. The feeling of lust that rushed through my body was unbelievable. Something that I have never experienced. My dick felt like it was going to explode, but still no erection at all. I slipped out of my clothes and lay naked on the bed. Looking down at my little limp dick. “What the F#ck have I done…..” With the lights turned down I took a few more deep breaths of my gorgeous wife’s panties. Her scent was powerful. I new the smell so well and the taste was as beautiful. Only this time it was not me who was going to enjoy her sexiness. Her nectar…It was some stranger. Someone she had chosen, someone she wanted to potentially have sex with. Something that I had essentially approved. In my minds eye, I could see him, a faceless man, seducing my wife, touching her, kissing her, making love to her.

I reached down and tried to rub my dick to an orgasm, but it was not going to happen. Not with the knowledge of F being with another man. I eventually slipped her panties on and tucked my dick flat against my tummy and started to stroke it and rub it in little circles like it was a clit. Nothing. I then noticed for the first time that my nuts had essentially pulled right up into me. I had this little nut sack, about the size of a squash ball. This was a new development. Is this part of the Curse???

11pm my phone lit up. A text from F

F- Hey babe, hope I never woke you, I’m leaving now. Chat later.

Me – Hey babe, you ok. Was worried sick about you.

F – I’m fine, heading home, will chat when I get there. Driving

Me – please drive safely.

F – You still awake?

Me – hell yes, couldn’t sleep if I tried

Me – Tell me everything please

F – I will, when you get home.

Me – Please F, I have to know

F – Know what?

Me – What you did….

F – You want to know if he made love to your wife

Me – F Please

F – LMFAO, no babe, your wife is still totally yours. But….

Me – But what??

F – He did kiss me, and I let him, and it was nice

Me – I’m going to call you

I called F and we had a long chat. They enjoyed a dinner and spoke a lot. About her, about him and about me. F told him that I knew she was out to dinner with him and that I was ok about it. He told F that his wife had died 11 year ago and that since then he had buried himself in his business. Not made time for a steady girlfriend. He has dated a few girls but they never stuck around because he was dedicated to making a success of his business. F told him that I travel a lot for work and that sometimes she just needed to get out, that she did not really enjoy being alone. Thankfully she never mentioned my impotence or my lack of size, but I am sure that it will come up at some stage. She said that he walked her back to her car. When they were saying their goodbyes, he took her hand and told her that he had really enjoyed the night and that he would like to see her again. Then he added if your husband is ok with that of course…F told him that she had had fun and that she would really like that and that she would discuss it with me. Crunch time.

I asked F if she wanted to see him again and if she thought that something could happen between them. She said that she did and that she was not sure if anything would happen. She said that he is very nice and fun to be with, but she said she really did not know if she was ready to take it to the next level. She said time would tell. We ended the call with our usual ritual of love you, love you more etc etc and said we would chat on Sunday.

I never slept well and ended up sleeping in a bit on Sunday. At around midday I received a text from F;

F – You awake babe

Me - yes, but still in bed, couldn’t sleep

F – still wearing my nickers? Lol

Me – Mmm no, but they are right next to me

F – just received a message from him

Me – oh?

F – he wants me to meet him at the yacht club at 2pm. He wants to take me sailing and then cook me dinner

Me – Shit, so soon

F – I know

Me – what did you say?

F – I said yes, that I would like that

To cut a long story short, he took F sailing and then moored up in the bay to watch the sun set. He had caught a few lobsters that morning and cooked them up for dinner. F said it was very romantic and that they had shared a few glasses of wine.  They apparently talked about what they were each looking for. He admitted to her that he has always found her very attractive, but as she was married had never taken it further. He also told her that he is not looking for a serious relationship, but rather female company. He continued to tell her that if anything ever happened between them, that he would never want to come between F and I. He also said that he juts cannot understand how I would be comfortable with my wife being out with another man. F explained that she is also looking for company and would explain the dynamic between her and I once they get to know each other a bit better. They then powered the sailboat back into the marina. F said they shared another kiss and she had to use all her willpower to leave. F told me that she wanted to talk very seriously to me about what I want and what we want because there is every possibility that this could turn into something real.

Thank you for reading my journal. As mentioned, I believe this will be my last post on this site unless there is some interest. I will continue on a more appropriate blog site. If anyone is interested in following, I will let you know where have moved too.

Thanks again, stay safe and bye…