So i've been listening to ThatOneGurrl's first succubus file where they succesfully summoned/created a succubus in their mind. I've been personally interested in alters/tulpa's and I consider this a pretty serious thing to listen to this file, maybe a bit too serious but they are someone you share a mind with. Either way I do like how the file itself is, the induction is pretty nice and it does get your imagination working when the fog is mentioned, how it invades the mind etc. Love it, hypnotic mist is a fun concept on it's own already. I do feel like the part when it starts talking about the succubus to be a sudden change when there's no binaural for a bit but it isn't too bothersome. Plenty of safeties and well is important, the entire succubus is something I don't really feel like it needs explaining but the entire thing is obviously about the creation of said succubus, her body, personality etc. 

So onto my experiences with the file during trance! I am always concious of my trance, took me a long time to even get myself to trance deeply when listening to hypnosis file in general but it definitely depends on what you like to listen to.  Everytime I listened during the succubus section the name has changed and so has the appearance. Although my recent listens the name that popped in my head only changed slightly but I am so unsure whether it comes from my concious, subconcious or the succubus that I doubt myself during trance. Appearance changed everytime I listened when my imagination ran on it's own when the file talked about the body of the succubus. Again I don't know where it comes from so I am doubting my own succes with this file even though I want to succeed.

When it comes to the trigger I find myself sometimes becoming relaxed, although I am actively trying to let the succubus come out, but either she's not strong enough or I am too resistant in someway. Just like the file suggests I don't want to doubt her existence and strangely while I am typing this when that thought comes into my head I feel slight twinges of pains which according to the file would suggest she exists while I am doubting her existence. 

Finally, regarding the inconsistency of the succubus's appearance and name, there are at least two things during the last few days that common in her name and appearance. The beginning of her name starts with Tia and in all the times since the past weekend her appearance seemed to incoporate the color blue all the time. Again I don't know where this is coming from but I guess they are a minor succes but it needs a bit more work. If I can get her to come out I will let her write the next journal. 

For anyone that is reading this, thank you for your time.