I so desire, to be forced to admit the reason I deserve the OTK-Spanking. Because if I do not deserve the spanking, then I must not have a good reason to be spanked. But I will not be able to come up with a good reason under stress, why I should lay across the lap and get paddled or a possible cherry wood stir stick to the bottom. 

Instead of this, I desire to work precisely stating their position along with what it means to the relationship. About discussing how, a serious spanking for maintenance, might benefit the relationship. Through needed structure, but this is difficult to communicate through the excitement of a custom-ordered file.

As a curse file, this can benefit my emotionality, by correcting my not taking into account, the investment of the dominant in the relationship. So refusing sissy wear, if this is an agreed-on dynamic, or potentially soiling diapers for a humiliating cleanup. When this violates expectations, I desire to be compelled to both apologize and request to potentially negotiate OTK-Spanking.

There are reduced noise level spankers, such as braided polymers from certain suppliers, that are heavy and flexible. If I want to act like a six-year-old, it will be corrected to a reduced disruption level. This means spankings are an option. Just how can I communicate this to the EMG Custom-File as, Negotiated-Relationship-Correction, where I can feel my Brattiness getting the deserved attention?