I fantasize about imposed body changes, such as earlobe piercing. Where because I do not want this, this earlobe piercing will be permanent. And if I wear any female-appropriate clothing even in private, then I might secretly want this earlobe piercing on some level. So I am making myself open to this possibility.

Along with no body hair, representing that I am either a woman or a child. This means I do not deserve a beard or lip hair, because feminization will overtake me. And if I have a tantrum like a little child, changes to my mind will cause changes to my body. When the diaper goes on, release outside of the diaper will be denied. The diaper forces the little child conduct, to become unable to remove the not full diaper.

I want the diapered with pierced earlobes appearance, and I want to be told to try not to act like a little girl during roleplaying when this diaper is on. That means the locking diaper cover and other anti-diaper-removal devices are consented to, by listening to this file. While more attempts to avoid wearing little girl dresses and other feminine things impose a role-playing-oriented yes. 

Telling me how because I write an ambiguous script, I will have over-the-knee socks, with sweet girly shoes such as Mary Jane shoes. With my complaining like A-Little-Sissy-Girl to nap times. Along with skirts, dresses, and makeup, I will learn when told to, to become a good homemaker. With immaturity not fit for a child, converting me in every way, possibly even physically into a child.

If no bondage gear to hold the diaper in place is available, I so wish the EMG would order me to then close the bathroom door, and not go in there while diapered, unless I have a good reason, which excludes using the toilet. Because of a simple fact, if my dominant claims I am not a male, I will be feminized, while if not mature, my age will travel backwards until my body eventually reaches my age of conduct.

I want to hear about crossdressing with bras and bralettes, leading to my breasts growing to need the support. My bones will soften, along with all other aspects of my appearance, until I can act seriously like a male. Being told by the EMG, that even if I hold my pee and poop when diapered, all will release because the rule of difficulty reaching the toilet shall increase, will hold from now on.

Skorts and skirts that do not get filled by the feminine curves are unacceptable, with a compulsion to get blouses. Because of female tights and feminine presentation everything, could easily appear around me. Even eventual feminization of my environment.

A special type of diapered role play will happen, and I fantasize about this, my attempt to use the toilet stops both my pee and poop because I am consenting to feeling powerless, just like the compulsion during diapered roleplay to only use the diaper. I want to be specifically instructed to release all of the poop in the diaper, to feel it grow moist and then slick. With the knowledge that I am opening myself up, to becoming a little child, however permanent it becomes.